I´m really happy to report back.
My last NN´ DMT session gave me a lot of insight on that i have to give NN´DMT the same respect that i give 5-Meo-DMT. This means look for for a sitter, weight my dosage, do it early in the morning where my head is clearer. etc. By no means it was a bad trip. But i blacked out. And i was on my last days of a Ciproflox treatment trying to get rid of a pesky bacteria that doesnt give me any symptoms. I had a few side effects that my brain played tricks on me and suggested a relationship with NN DMT. and because i had blacked out, i had no recollection of that. So my waning libido and lack of wanting to get intimate with my wife became worrysome.
One week passed by and the persistint hedache lowered and the libido was almost there, but there i had planted a pesky psych on me.. As the next weekend aproached i bought some viagra, stopped running. but i had some fear on me that i needed to get rid off. Soo.. i went to my shaman, told him my woes. got a tincture from him. and setup my appointment to do 5-meo early saturday. I gifted him with my yocan vaporizer, and explained him how to use it. He gave me back some "afrodisiac" shrooms from czech republic.
Saturday arrived, one guy arrived to do Kambo. while i was doing breathing exercises. The shaman told him that i´m over there for the medicine not for him. so that he didn´t get distracted. And that i was going to go deep. then with me he poked fun, told me to bring my scale next time so we can measure what he was giving. i eyeballed it, it was a toad secretion 1/3 of an inch width with some thickness to it. Just laughed internally as i was up for a challange, that was definitely around 80 mg. He torched it and i inhaled so very slowly.
It full force hit me, but i didn´t blackout. i took so much back with me as if i were a fish gliding on a current. Till i was back and given the choice of grabbing my body again. Laying down i accepted it, but couldn´t move. I was still flush with images and feelings coming to my body. but without tought, without hesitation. Laying back, taking the sun, the flys, etc. with small tears covering my cheeks at the same time that i was smiling with muscles that i didn´t know i had on my face.
The experience is a lot less alien as NN´DMT, less fantastical. But still after two full days, i still feel the afterglow of 5-Meo-DMT. Again i´m full of peace and can tell to myseflg that i closed a chapter. I feel that NN´DMT gave me a different perspective on the 5-meo experience. Had a lot of tiredness and soreness in my body that i want´s showing. My body has been aching for two days, i have sleeped as a bear. Even my eyes show small hemorrages now that the pressure in my eyes and head has subsided. I didn´t need the blue pill. But sure i´m enjoying todays cofee.
BTW. Toad commerce is an issue, they take them out of their natural habitat and the numbers have been dropping, either by that or just the expansion of roads in their living habitat. Conservation efforts are needed. I´m not an hypocrite, i´m ok with toad poison being extracted. As they do extract venom for snakes, it´s useful, it´s not just a trip. It´s really helpful, but it´s need to be done with order. I understand people with even firmer opinions on this issue.