Jesus freaking Christ. Being the natural P**** I trully am, I again had a teeny-tiny dose and again, being in that fractal space... You guys, this must be probably laughable for those that can really do it, but this is like the sweetest candy. I feel so terribly anxious before I do it and I have no idea why because while I'm doing it, it's such a bliss. I have that with all psychedelics, until I pass a certain border I'm like, nope this is not for me anymore, too unprepared, didn't do enough meditation, too young, too old, too I don't know what-ever, and when I pass it I'm like, jesus please don't let me go. I can feel my earthly existence drifting away from me and I feel light. That feeling of truth, of realness, of LIFE and power and all the beauty and all the terror and you are completely naked before it and it's ALIFE and it's so intoxicating. It feels a little bit erotic by the way. My impression, just saying. Again, me total newbie speaking after like 10 mg you know Jesus christ I know, I know, cannot know until I do it properly, but even this is so impressive to me. And I think this is a way to go for me, to have a mild dose and when I'm in that state of sweet confusion and awe and gratitude, then do more, not like I did it the first time I tried through, head against the wall, I can do that when I grow up... By the way, I tried like a week ago and I was physically not able to do it, I had three lighters and they kept failing until I wasted what I had there to a light buzz in the head... and today, I could, today is the full moon, like it was a month ago when I could, so I think I might consider that next time