My girlfriend is planning on doing an MDMA psychotherapy day at home next week and we weren't sure if some MDMA that we've had in the freezer for a very long was still viable. I volunteered to try out a small dose to see how it was. I measured out 70mg and drank it in a glass of water. About 40 minutes later I felt it coming on - it was fairly mild but definitely noticeable. I sat down and started to meditate which became very profound during the course of the first hour, then did some body scanning lying down and then another hour of meditation. I saw my pupils were a little bit dilated but not fully. Obviously the MDMA has retained most if not all of its potential.
So about two and a half hours in I got out my e-cigarette which I use these days for vaping DMT. I can't measure an exact dose with this but from experience I know that roughly speaking one full hit is equivalent to 10mg of DMT and I can pretty much guarantee a breakthrough with four hits. I took two hits this time and was astounded by the effect. It was very close to breakthrough with the most exquisitely delicate scenery moving at high speed. I had read previously that, if anything, MDMA dampened the effect of DMT but in this case it had amplified it considerably.
About half an hour later I picked up the e-cig again and took two large hits. I was planning on taking three this time but I can't actually say if I actually took the third or not, possibly I took a half hit. This time it was astounding; it entered first into the extreme visuals of before and then fully into another universe. The contents of this world were so real, every aspect was so visually sharp as if I had moved from 70 pixels per inch to a million per inch and the detail on everything was so intricate, beautiful and completely unconnected with anything that exists in this world - it was simply breathtaking. I saw two beings, obviously female, but too different from anything I could possible describe who passed without giving me any attention. Later a group of beings seemed to lock another similar being into a chair with a belt up on a platform but they didn't interact with me. The incredible imagery continued unabated. I seemed to pass a long and indeterminate amount of time in this place and started to feel I had been there too long and an edge of uneasiness started to creep in. I wanted to tell myself that there was no need to worry, the experience only lasted 7 minutes and I just needed to hang on in there till it stopped but there was no way to form this conceptual information. The imagery started to turn a bit dark and menacing. I opened my eyes but what I saw was so bizarre and unknown that I closed them again. I tried to connect with a feeling of love and the world reverted to something beautiful although by this time the experience was beginning to end. I seemed to take a long time to come back to any sense of normality - I'm not sure if this was the effect of the MDMA. Also for a couple of hours after, whenever I closed my eyes, I could return to some pretty amazing imagery.
Just as summary, for me at least, MDMA increased the effects of the DMT. Normally I need around 35mg of DMT to break through and I don't think I could have smoked more than 25mg. The experience also seemed more refined in some sort of way that's difficult to explain. The combination didn't guarantee a 100% positive experience which I might have thought was the case with MDMA which tends to bring out the most positive in everything. I would certainly like to try this combination again sometime.
In all of reality there are not two. There is just the one thing. And I am that.