I have stopped saying "it's awesome" to anyone who asks. It finally came in handy just yesterday. A woman told me she wanted to heal from Aya, she knew I went to a ceremony. I've known her for 30ish years. So I called her, in the middle she thought I was her cousin and started swearing at my mother. I had never known she suffered from delusions.
My thoughts went from "we will find you a place to do Aya" to "I need to make sure someone who cares about her is there and we get her back on her medications".
I thought everyone had their collective crud together, so I used to share my dark meme about this stuff. I now keep it to myself, until I know someone is ready and really ready.
Taking a family member who quit drinking (after he left his wife and 3 kids) to an Aya ceremony. We started with 1/2 g Mushroom trips. He is ready.
Don't blame yourself, especially if lied too. Many of us have bigger hearts because of what we have learned. You seem to be one of us who has a really "sturdy" head on your shoulders and glad people like you are around.
Love brother.. you are doing the right things.
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