SO you say, Well do I have to wait? But the whole thing is in the waiting! I don't mean the virtue of patience, I mean waiting when there is nothing to do but wait. and when you see There IS nothing to do but wait. Then it happens. but it won't be hurried. Because the minute you're trying to hurry it, that introduces the very thing that stops it. The miracle, the magic thing, IS happening all the time. But you can't SEE it when your trying to get it. And you can still less see it when your trying to get it fast. So there is no alternative then to the point that you can't get it at all. You are going to be you. The same slob you've always been. You cant change it, and all your good resolutions are just bombast.

Then you start to be real. So just as in travelling, or in ordinary relationships with your friends everyday, these gorgeous things happen, of themselves. Those are the true pleasures. So are the level of mystical experiences. The most astounding insights. When you can go into the deep most trivial of everyday affairs, as containing the entire universe. Any point becomes the takeoff point.

And when all thats gone and that whole attempt to 'clutch' life, to capture the pleasure, has disintegrated. There it is. And you needent feel anxious about will it stay, its a gorgeous thing to feel you no longer have got to worry about if it will stick around. Because if you do worry you will shoo it away!.

A tremendous relief, not to have to bother, with 'will it not to have to stick around?' 'will i lose my insight?' you just forget it! Because the more you let go of it, the more it stays. And you don't even have to worry about 'will you be sure to let go of it?' because that too is a hang up. And you can begin, from your very weakness. That's your strength. Its not your big ego and your big will that is the strong thing here. It's your sloppiness, its your weakness, its your foolish side that is your strong suit here. Yokaidaishi puts it in this way: "You cannot take hold of it, you cannot get rid of it." In not being able to get it you get it. When you are silent it speaks, when you speak it is silent. The great gate is wide open. And nobody obstructing it.

Shut-out:That occasional experience where hyperspace simply will not open for you. Even at fairly high doses and properly administered, sometimes you just aren't let into the club by the bouncers. Don't push if this happens, as it is likely to lead to a hyperslap.