Yeah, nobody fooled me on this day I thought but my nightly session was quite a "joke".
First this
A week ago I did my first pharmahuasca, coming from drinking aya I had to adjust, thrust and addapt.
200 mg full spectrum harmaloids and 100 mg spice where put in coco cola and drunk directly.
Wow, the harmaloids where making my very drunk and then it started to hit me. The lights went on.
The raw power was overwhelming me and it was great. I screamed I shook I cried and I processed a lot.
The force Pinpointing me directlyto what had to be seen.
It was intense, warm and visionary.
I never had this kind of experience with aya.
When almost completely smeard to the floor I got myself upp to smoalk my first 10 mg from a VGV ever.
Harmaloids where still working so I went deeper. The purga arrived and I welcomed it.
It felt like eternity but I looked at the time only a few hours had past.
The days after the glow was very strong and a friend mentioned how clear I looked.
A truly healing experience.
April Fools' Day Session.
250 mg harmaloids in coke drunk directly.
120 mg spice soaked in coke for a couple of hours.
20 mg spice in VGV
unmeasured harmaloids in bong
unmeasured changa in bong
very little aya.
Very soon, maybe after 25 minutes I more or less only felt drunk from the harmaloids. Something was missing better something was different. Where is the light ?
I took the VGV and put the torch there. I was schocked when I saw all that smoke being released and it went all in. For a split second I thought, yeah, now you did it, thats it but of course not.
To my surprise the spice hit me directly like I did not have harmaloids in my system. With open eyes all turned in 4D in high speed.
30 minutes later I felt something strange. A energy that kept me confused restless like I half in half out.
Hmm, maybe I should leave for tonight or should smoalk moar and get over it ?
Ok more !!
Then it started. My brain was falling a part. For the next 4 or 5 hours I had a kind of meltdown. I could not direct any thoughts or feeling. Visions in my mind went everywhere and nowhere.
It felt I had multiple personalities because I switched from one state to the other that was completly opposite from what I was feeling, thinking a second ago.
I decided to relax and go with this April Fools' Day DMT joke as much as possible
One minut I was calm, then within a split second came all this nonsence sound out of me then laughter, crying and so on and so on.
Getting undressed feeling really cumfy touching my skin. grabbing my hair and totaly lost suffering the next second.
There was nothing to hold on to so I let it go.
I happy for this to have happened, yes shure I was more or less expecting a similar experience as in the first session.
But you get what you get.
This was not healing or was it ?
This was one a many faces of DMT.
Got you April Fools' Day !!
At least I know who I am again, (really do you ?
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