6 years after my first visit the spice finds me again and is here to stay it took 5 or more attempts to get comfortable enough to fully brakethrough and leave my body as in the first few trys it was hard to get a hit with the harshness of smoke and taste

i could feel my brain being shot into another realm like a inter-dimensional rocket. intence geometric paterns formed a hallway of sorts and i felt like i was on a hospital bed being pushed down a intencely bright red and white walled hallway and i looked to my left and there was a light entity there and i lost all fear and was covered in a blanket of pure love and understanding that seemed so overwhelming at first but was so comfortable and embracing i just let go and i could feel the light person telling me things like "im glad your back""everything will change soon you just need to be set to path" as its telling me this i can feel everything comming back together and i opened my eyes to see teal- green walls with paterns and 3 dimensional shadows ina few more mins i would base line and had flashes of things the light entity showed me of what iv done wrong and how iv changed peoples lives

my next attempt came about 2 hours later when i packed up another sandwitch and blasted off this time i was taken to a world where i felt welcome, accepted, and loved i had been here before as i was getting flashes of so many deja vu's andthen a man came up to me put a chair down and sat backwerds on it and he looked at me as i looked back and just by looking at me he was teaching me implanting thousands and thousands of thoughts in my brain so much so i cant rember any of it but i feel like neo in the matrix having everything i needed to know downloaded to my brain and this went on for what seemed to be forever litteraly yearssss felt like they went by he was trying to give me the encyclopedia galactica of everything thats ever happened since the start of our universe to the time it rips appart. i open my eyes and feel so over whelmed by knowledge i couldnt think as i start to base line after meditating a wile i could understand that i will never ever ever know everything i was just shown but this outstanding confidence grew inside me as this expernce shattered almost every emotional insecurity i had and im just left with a peaceful confidence like iv taken a mental leap over a river of everything that brings me down and land on a side with higher banks and it just dose not effect me like it did

the next night i had a campfire with my best friend who has never blasted off before there were hundreds of thousands of stars out and juipiter and venus 3 degrees apart he wanted to see what i did on it so i went first i got my 3 hits in and had a mild blast off nothing to intense untill he had to throw more leaves and sticks on the fire and the smell of burning leaves and the heat clicked some basic survival instinct in my head and i thought the smell was my burning flesh and that i was litteraly on fire i could feel and see my body burning ( WOW WHAT A MIND JOB THAT WAS )i was simply ejectecd from hyperspace threw my self out of the chair screaming IM ON FIRE IM ON FIRE and then i relized what had happened and i could see the leaves burning and i started yelling at my friend that he shouldnt of done that because the smell of the smoke messed me up so bad it was terrifying to him and me lol but i talked him down because i told him i wasnt going to do anything but sit quiet untill he came back and baselined as to not distract him he had a great first experence

theres been other breakthroughs but some so indescribable and profound they just cant be explained with words that i know. so now that i got all that typed out any one have experence anything similar or any outside insights to what i may of experenced are welcome!