So it's been a few days since I've felt like getting on my computer, but this is my first experience with DMT.
This will probably be pretty long. I apologize, I just have a lot to share about this one.
*********************************************PRE-CONDITIONS(mind)Set: A very spiritually energetic mindset. Meditated, gave prayer and thanks to the spirits of the plants and the energies of the universe for weeks before. Greatly anticipating the experience.
(physical condition) Set: I had practiced Yoga, Martial arts, and basic cardio as I usually do for weeks leading up. Good physical condition.
Setting (location): My room, on my bed, Windows covered, completely cleaned, vacuumed, single candle lit, and 5 hour playlist of ambient meditation music playing.
time of day: 10:30 a.m.
recent drug use: Regular Marijuana use.
last meal: The night before. (small freshly blended fruit drink.)
Gender: Male
body weight: 140 lbs
history of use: First timer with DMT. Experienced in many other drugs including psychedelics.
BIOASSAYSubstance(s): Ground up/ powdered Syrian Rue and pure Mimosa Hostilis inner root bark.
Dose(s): 2 grams Syrian Rue, 5 grams Mimosa Hostilis.
Method of administration: Reduced acidic (white vinegar) 2 gram dose of boiled and filtered Syrian rue (1 wash) taken prior to a reduced, Acidic (white vinegar) brew of 5 grams of Mimosa Hostilis root bark tea. ( 3 washes of 1 hour each.)
EFFECTSAdministration time: 10:30 a.m.
Duration: About 5 hours
First effects: A strong euphoria (Possibly from the Syrian Rue, which I had experimented with prior to this experience), followed by extremely vivid closed eye visuals.
Peak: This is hard to say as we had put away all electronics and didn't have any real sense of time, but I would guess that the peak was probably about two to three hours long.
Come down: The come down was very gradual and seemed to gently embrace me back down into my body from around the 5 to 6 hour marks after ingestion.
Intensity (overall): I was really surprised at the raw power and beauty of this experience despite having researched it extensively. It was by far the most intense experience of my life.
As far as hangovers/ after effects go, I did not fully come back down to earth until about three days after the experience, I physically stopped feeling the effects by the next day, but the experience was so strong that my whole sense of spirituality was changed after the experience. I do not consider this a bad thing, but it's definitely something you may want to keep in mind prior to giving this experience a try. It's immensely powerful.
ADDITIONAL NOTES*Let me first start off by saying that this was my first Ayahuasca experience. I'm aware that it wasn't exactly the traditional Aya mixture, but either way this was my first encounter with DMT.
*After about 5 or 6 hours slaving over boiling pots, reducing, filtering, and repeating, I had finished my Mimosahuasca brew as well as my Syrian Rue tea. There was definitely a lot of care that went into this process and I took it very seriously.
*Both me and my girlfriend dieted the day before on just fresh bread, fruit, and vegetables. Although the Syrian Rue is a reverse MAOI and doesn't really require much diet at all, we decided to diet anyway just to cleanse before our ceremony.
*After all the hard work and preparation, we decided to take our Aya brew in the morning at about 10:30. We sat in my room; windows covered, lights off, ambient music washing over the room, and drank our doses. I gave her half of a 5 gram dose while I drank a full dose. It took about 45 minutes after drinking the mimosa brew for effects to completely set in.
*********************************************REPORT10:00- Me and my girlfriend drank our 2 gram Syrian Rue brews and waited for them to set in.
10:20- We both began to feel the effects coming up moderately strong from the syrian rue so we decided to sit down on my bed with some buckets and drink our mimosa doses.
10:30- We took the first sips of this god awful mixture... I honestly didn't think it would be anywhere near as bad as it was. Haha. Altoids were our best friend during this process. Although they seemed to intensify the nausea a little for me, they definitely helped with the taste. All was going well as we both finished half of our doses, which in my girlfriend's case was her full dose, and then I felt the nausea coming on.
10:50- I puked. I seemed to puke out every last drop of what I'd Just drank. Which was very depressing as that meant I would have to choke down twice as much as before to get my full dose.. It took me about fifteen minutes to drink the full 5 gram dose after purging. Somehow my dainty little girlfriend didn't even experience nausea for about two hours when she only slightly purged.
11:00- (I mark this as the point when my trip really began, from here on out all cell phones and music devices were put away, so I really had no sense of time, and therefore, the time marks stop here.)
My body seemed to acknowledge my persistence with the Mimosa and kept the the brew down. I began to feel extremely euphoric so I decided to lie back and close my eyes to the ambient sounds that were sailing through my body. As I closed my eyes I saw increasingly vivid visions. The first vision I had was very distinct, yet subtle. There were simple, yet constantly changing patterns in front of me. These patterns started out faint and steadily intensified in color and in detail. I could only describe them as constantly changing, yet synchronized geometric tessellations. These patterns continued for a few moments and I then noticed about 8 stone blocks floating, melting; arranging themselves in a sort of mechanic behavior. As I took note of these blocks, I realized that I was standing in a sort of tunnel shaped room. Standing inside this horizontal cylinder, I watched the floating blocks in front of me arrange, pause, and then re- arrange. I was mesmerized by how remarkably vivid and beautiful these were. These blocks continued to shift and the long, hallway-like cylinder seemed to pulse with vibrations. As I watched, I noticed the room begin to fill up with liquid. Not how gravity would normally allow it to fill, but horizontally like this [----> The liquid remaining completely vertical on the surface. As the liquid engulfed the shifting blocks, it stopped just a few feet from my face and began bubbling. I realized that I was staring into a pot of boiling Ayahuasca. This served as a reminder of the time, energy, and prayer I had spend slaving over my brews the day before.
I want to add that throughout the duration of the experience, this image of the bubbling Ayahuasca was a recurring vision which I saw about 5 or six times altogether. Each time was a reminder of the energy I had put into the process.
Before this experience I had read about the importance of investing as much of your energy into this process as possible, as you were bound to receive the same amount of love through your trip. This was proven remarkably true in my case.
I continued to have vivid visions of strange symbols pouring out of a single ball of light whizzing past my head and dancing around me. I watched many more visions and images melt around inside my mind and observed very intently for a few more moments.
I then sat back and opened my eyes. With only a single candle lit in my room, I looked around and could see my room pulsing, folding, and twisting in on itself. All of the posters and art work on my wall seemed to display a different sort of energy that I had never sensed before. I watched the room swirl and crumble in amazement and closed my eyes again to the bright, rolling geometric animations.
I sat for a moment until I felt a strong presence hovering over me. There was a legitimate presence standing right next to me. Opening my eyes did nothing to remove the presence from my side. I opened my eyes and "saw" (I did not visually see it as much as I felt it, but its presence painted a very clear picture in my mind.) Almost as if a sixth sense had opened up in my mind and I could now completely sense spiritual entities. If this makes any sense?
Anyway, I looked up at this entity and was flooded with a deep reddish purple color throughout my mind and body. This color did not have a good tone to it and its energy was not welcoming at all. I didn't like the way it made me feel and decided not to let the energy in. I rejected this energy by turning away from it. It turned a deep red and gave me very angry energies. I turned my head to it again and watched it angrily fade away...
As this energy faded, a drop of brilliantly vibrant blue landed in the space that this unfriendly presence had occupied. This bright, calming, refreshing blue washed over me and swallowed my entire being. I then found myself in the presence of the great mother. I don't know if any of you guys have experienced this divine, maternal energy, on Ayahuasca, but it was the most beautiful thing I have ever felt in my entire life. It was like the love of a mother to her newborn child multiplied by infinity. I was basking in the light of this overwhelmingly loving energy and it was cradling me, teaching me about my life, and about what should truly be important to a person. I was taught about the importance of love. I was shown how much I had been neglecting my family, and how much better my life would be if I let this love resonate from inside me. I was surrounded by spirits and energies that welcomed and guided my presence into this incredible space.
Love is passion, and without love, we honestly have no direction. Without the love of a mother, father, friend, significant other, and/or the love and passion for a certain activity or object, we would have no direction at all in life.
I realized how powerful the feeling of love is and how powerful the words "I love you" can be. Three words that get taken for granted so often, yet three words that can completely make a person's day.
The word "Love" for some reason seems to get shyly tiptoed around by many people. I still don't quite understand this. It seems as though the concept of love is not taken completely seriously and is very often taken for granted.
Long story short, me and my girlfriend were lying together, holding each other tightly. Bursting with tears of overwhelming love and happiness.
During my trip, I had a certain Jimi Hendrix quote that was echoing throughout my mind for a part of my trip, "When the power of love overcomes the love of power, the world will know peace" - Jimi Hendrix. Powerfully truthful words.
Now I know I may be coming off as a tree hugging hippie, but this message of love was profoundly strong to me during my trip. It was a simple message that has completely changed my life so I figured I would elaborate a bit.
Another note: I also realized how sacred the simple gift of breath is. I would suggest any first timers trying Ayahuasca to remember your breath. In with the positive, out with the negative. Basic breathing exercises proved to be incredibly cleansing and calming during my experience.
The decline of the trip was spent talking to my girlfriend about our experiences and visions throughout our trips.
The rest of the day felt as if I was an alien sent to earth expected to behave normally. Haha. It was a really awkward feeling. I almost felt like a baby deer learning to walk In a sense...
Throughout the next day I continued to have epiphanies and realizations that I would have never had otherwise and have since not had the desire to drink at all. Which is pretty abnormal for me. In fact, I personally detest drinking now. The idea of suppressing and numbing the mind and body seems really dumb to me now after an experience like that. Not trying to bash on any drinkers out there. This is just what I took away from the experience.
As I said earlier, It took about 3 or 4 days to feel like I had comfortably settled in to the human population again.
I know 5 grams of Mimosa isn't necessarily a high dose, and this was the first time that I've ever tried Ayahuasca, but I feel like this was definitely what you would call a "breakthrough" experience.
It surely changed my life in a positive way. I definitely plan on doing this again within the next few months sometime when I can build up the spiritual energy needed for the whole experience.
This definitely made me re-think some things, change some things about my personality, and change the way I look at things. It was definitely a positive change however.
Overall, beautifully healing experience.
Questions and feedback are welcome.