I am slowly working up my dosage, getting acquainted with the feeling/flow.

Last thursday I had my second attempt, to reach hyperspace. the sunday before I tried to reach it, a lot of beautiful visuals, but nothing too spectacular. I noticed that I was high on energy for a couple of days, all in my upper chakra's. I tried to lower it by consciously grounding.

On thursday I had a meeting with some friends. Having built a the machine, the dosage keeps growing because there are small white bits that recrystallize when the machine cools. We took a little bit of syrian rue, about half a gram, just to boost the experience a little bit.

I keep getting better in using the machine. The first time last thursday I had some very beautiful closed eye visuals. I like to close my eyes, so I can focus on what the spirit molecule brings me instead of my visual percepts being distorted.

The room I was in was built with fractals with a big one in the center. The fractals were having a lot of faces, welcoming me very friendly.

An hour later I loaded up the machine once more. I took some good good tokes. I was still in my body, because I could feel my skin tingling, as if all my senses had gone to hypersensitive. I was humming and breathing consciously while moving through a room that looked strangely familiar, was it from the previous hit? I don't know.

I had the sensation that I was in the room with a female divine entity, there was something sitting in lotus, but she was morphing all the time, shining. A bit later a went into one of the fractals that created the wall, as if I had chosen a door to go in and she shows me something that I cannot remember, I cannot grasp it, as after a balloon of nitrous oxygene.

Upon entering the door I was tsunamied with a ridiculous amount of Love. So much love, unconditional love.

When I came back all I could say was wow. wow.

I came down around sunday afternoon, I have been on a pink cloud for a couple of days. If this being exists mind-independently (what I cannot prove, of course), it would give life so much more meaning, knowing that there is this pool of unconditional love I can always come to bathe. I wouldn't mind going back there.

The experience was more dream-like than trip like. It was not distinguishable from a normal experience (except for being not normal ). It was as if I really experienced being showed something.

wow

Awesome.

Thank you for sharing this, Brainreis.

you're welcome, ۩

in my opinion and experience, that infinite love is within yourself.
the entity could maybe have just been showing you. you did say "A bit later a went into one of the fractals that created the wall, as if I had chosen a door to go in".
you opened the door, and can return anytime, with or without dmt.

<3


thats just my interpretation, i could be way off

be well
<3 <3 <3 <3

Awesome report. These are the kind of reports I like to hear. Even though we can't fully understand it all, some things we just know are good.

thank you for the kind replies, Reborninsmoke and Majesticnature.

to see dmt as a path inward instead of outward, as a key katalysator to show a direction that is open to us is a comforting thought.

just log in to the love <3

nice report!
how much has the rue influenced the trip,what do you think?



imo its the SAME in every being,actally i think we are in it

Dear InLaKesh,

I couldn't say how much it has influenced the journey. I do know that it was very colourful and that I was very clear of mind. I really liked the clarity, but I can't say whether it was the rue.

the rue has some boosting qualities though. I could really feel it take effect 25 minutes after ingestion.

Peace.

I think the clear mind is not from the rue,because the harmalin in it is often discribed as being hazy.
i am definetly trying something similar in the future (i am interrested in what a low dose of oral harmalas add to the spice experience)