k so... haha where to begin. just took my first 2 hits of dmt. pretty intense! the music starts to crystalise around, evelopes me, tells me its ok. sharp crystaline million mile an hour vivid patterns start to overwhelm my vision, building in intensity. i can feel my friend beside me even though my eyes are closed and his prescence makes me steady out. the colous and crystals slow and flow and become more bubbly and curvy and round. Im spinning through these distinctly feminine forms, folding into luscious looking boobs ands bums and curves and colous!! an ex girlfriend pops out and starts to tempt be further the way she did with her wicked blue eyes. lots of reds and pinks and bleeding curvy shapes begin to form like wax melting over my eyes. i definately feel like the shapes know me and can see through me and understand me more than i do. a lesson begins to unfold about moving on n getting over lost love n that its ok 2 want. im definately scared but it feels quite familiar, kinda like ive been here before. there seems to be a to and fro of yearning and being a little afraid on my part but i do find some reassurence in the overwhelming smallness of me in comparison to the bubbly sexy waxy brilliance. kinda puts you in your place! i start to bubble out of it and i come round as the tune ends even though i wasnt really aware of it in there, open my eyes and start 2 discuss with my pal what i saw. i can kinda see him in a new way, a deeper level, a bit more whole. so then take 2. i leave it in my mates capable hands 2 sort a dose out n he says this ones a bit more potent! sweet! so... the crystals are back but this is way more intsnse, im speeding through them so fast as they build in colous and intensity and suddenly im watching this amazingly cool couple dancing with the music, they look quite human but they are definately so much more. theres a velumptous woman with a curvy, sexy body and a guy, i think a black guy, their dancing n weaving in and ot of these radiohead shaped colous and curves but i think they realise im there and i feel kinda green, inexperienced, not really cool enough 2 be watchin them but they dont mind for a while. i hate to say it but i got a bit scared, felt i was pryin in on a private moment but i reckon they would have been welcoming if id have been a bit braver!! so i kinda feel myself withdraw a little and another lesson starts to come to fruition. this ones regarding fear. i, in general have been quite afraid of people in life for no particular reason. this is me, and im cool with that, its a process n its gettin better all the time... anyway i start to feel this overwhelming understanding of the effects of my fear and how it effects the universe and the people around me and the path that my life takes. i real;y get the feelin these 2 are... ...well takin the piss a bit! im like a little tabby stumbled into a lions den. they have there fun for a bit n i know its not malicious n then they carry on with there dancin n pass me on to some pretty bubbly checkered clown pants wobbles and carry on with their dancing. cool bastards... so i start to come out and im humbled and really happy with the experience. really pleased to have seen some amazingly beautiful creatures but a bit pissed off i was a bit off a wimp!! but hey first time of many i reckon. ill be dancing with them soon.