Before this experience I had used DMT once with a full breakthrough to cosmic isness. This was only a month after that experience and it still resonated strongly in my soul. I met up with a friend, "Louis", who had DMT and was about to go smoke some with an experienced friend and two noobs. I told him that I was still reeling from last time but that I would come along in order to watch. Me and my three companions proceeded to make our way to a small forest of bamboo next to some traintracks. Here we sat down and smoked a bowl of weed with a little DMT on top and passed it around. This made me only high and caused a bit of acid wobble and shine in my surroundings. But it also made me rethink if I would use tonite. After this bowl we got up and began to walk down the traintracks. Louis hit some DMT while walking and passed me the bowl. I hesitated for a second but he gave me a look of reassurance and my conscience said, "Go for a
little trip." This is impossible with the spice. I hit the small bowl and held it in as long as I could. As I let it out I felt an immediate sensation of being here before and simultaneity while also remembering a few of the deep revelations from my earlier breakthrough trip. Visually at this point the river rocks under the traintracks were all formed into intense spiraling zigzag patterns and when I looked at the sky it was a pulsing dome full of light. I immediatedly felt how I was all these people while also being everything else around me. The strongest feeling was one of simultaneity or isness like everything that was happening was not a fleeting moment lost iin time but was actually a permutation of some universal program that had been run many times before. As the revelations continued to hit and the hallucinations grew stranger I sat down on the tracks to compose myself. As I closed my eyes I felt as if I was going to breakthrough like my last time but then some commotion between my companions disturbed me. I opened my eyes to see my three companions in a sort of frantic search for some object on the ground. They looked stressed but I couldn't understand what they were doing it all seemed so unneccesary. As I watched them my fear grew as I felt and magnified their franticness. I heard that it was a wallet that had been lost. Hearing this I put all concentration into my companions and hoped with all my consciousness that they would find the wallet. As the stress neared a peak the owner of the wallet exclaimed, "Ah, whatever I don't need my wallet." Immediatedly after this he looked at his feet and there it was. My trip mellowed out and I began to wonder if I had somehow manifested the wallet or if my friend in his debonaire attitude had allowed the cosmos to bring it back to him. Not saying this is what I thought really happened but it is how my mind construed the situation at this time. Since this I have yet to take the rde again but believe I will soon be ready.
Anyone else get that eery feeling of being here before when there in a hallucinatory yet not breakthrough trip?
In the province of the mind what one believes to be true, either is true or becomes true within certain limits. These limits are to be found experimentally and experientially. When so found these limits turn out to be further beliefs to be transcended. In the province of the mind there are no limits. However, in the province of the body there are definite limits not to be transcended.-J.C. Lilly
The Spice must flow
Zat was Zen and dis is Dao.