It's been a long time since i last sat with spice. The first time i was introduced to dimitri was on the side of a hill watching the sun rise on a beautiful August day. I didn't break through my first couple times until now. Today, i received some long awaited dmt and loaded a small amount to vape to get my barrings in the other world. I took the hit, held in, held in, held in, and blew out. The intensification of colors forced my eyes closed and i saw a being made up of the most unusual patterning. he held me tight as trying to "condition" me in the new space that i hadnt been in since the last time i did dmt many many months ago. I could watch him hold me and see all these crazy patterns and hear crazy noises that sounded like their language. I opened my eyes and went outside for a cig.

Came back into my bedroom and decided i wanted to go further. I took an even bigger hit this time and BAMM!!!!!!!! Was right back where i left off but this time i wasnt being held. i was being examined by the creature and he was talking sooo much louder. this alien language i couldnt understand and cannot begin to describe. I was being shown this room. In the room the being was picking bodies out of boxes and moving them around. While doing this he was trying to tell me what he does which is like what i do at my day job. I work with older macbooks. we get them coming in all dirty and sometimes broken and we clean them, wipe the hard drives and repackage and resell them.Pretty much i refurbish Macs all day. The being was telling me this is what he does to old souls of people who have died. They come in dirty and broken from the pain of the earth and he cleans them wipes their memory and repackages them to be sent back down into newborn babies to begin the life/death cycle all over again. He then took a look at me and examined me. i could feel him poking and prodding at me, reading my mind, my purpose. I could feel him programming the souls with their path in life and purpose. I couldnt believe what i was seeing. All these souls of humans coming in and out. It reminded me of the animatrix where the machines experiment on human survivors from the machine war. I very loudly asked the being WHY he was taking these humans and repackaging them and he looked at me, put all of his attention on me. Spoke very loudly like he was angry and said Who Are You to Ask Me Why I Do What I've Always Done! You Were Here Once. I Packaged You Up. Sent You Down To Earth. This is What I DO!!!!! It go very intense and i had to open my eyes. I jumped out of my room and went outside. The visuals were still insane and i closed my eyes again and things were much more peaceful.

I think i need to have a breakthrough out in the woods, out in nature. Being in my enclosed room, by myself was TOO MUCH Attention. This has seriously fucked with my head in ways I can't even comprehend. I was raised in the Christian Church and what I saw goes against everything I have ever believed about what happens when we die and where we go. This is only my first time breaking through and I know in the future I will be shown more of what goes on "up there", but for now I can barely integrate what I just saw. I Do Now Fully Believe in Reincarnation tho....BIZARE!

Nice write up. Did you ever consider that what you saw may be whats going on here and now and not just up there afterwards, after we die?

Take time to integrate your experiences.

IH

it felt like i was there in that moment. it seemed that these souls being packaged for earth were about to become babies born today, right now. Thankyou for the support. I will deff be taking a nice break to integrate before moving further.

I've always pondered this topic as well. It is my personal belief and I'm not stating it as fact, but I believe that souls are indeed reused in that exact way. New Agers and a lot of religions view this reincarnation as a learning experience and what not, but how are you ever supposed to learn anything when you don't remember what happened before? Even with all my inner journeying in life I never once have experienced a memory from a past life that I'm aware of, and everything I have read about it suggests that it is extremely difficult to recover past life memories, whether through hypnosis or psychedelics. How are we supposed to learn anything with this cycle? How do you integrate these past experiences into your new life if you are unaware of them? Seems more like a human farm to me. . . http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xbp6umQT58A. I know most people on here refuse youtube as a source, but this person is really only speculating and not trying to state something as fact necessarily. Just an interesting perspective on what most people blindly accept as "reincarnation." One thing that has always been true in my experiences, is that nothing is free/easy. So why would life be so simple that you get to cruise through it, die, and then get another free ride to "learn" more? Simple, someone/something is benefiting from you doing this. This is where it would start to get into the conspiracy and lack-of-proof part of things, but people including myself, have speculated that perhaps there are scalpers of some sort so to speak, who wait for you at the "end of the tunnel" to strip you of your memories and recycle you back into slavery. And perhaps the DMT universe is simply taking a peak at the machine we help run, without actually being a part of it? Again, why would it be that easy for us? Everything else in life has always seemed to require 50% from inside you and 50% from outside you (ime), so blindly expecting to be reincarnated based off of karma and seemingly being nice to people, is the same to me as the religious folk who put 100% trust/faith in "god", yet refuse to take anything into their own hands and take action. They're lacking the 50% from themselves. Anyways, before this turns into even more of a ramble, sounds like quite a trip you took there! Be sure to keep a journal or diary, somebody has to start piecing together a map of hyperspace that can be navigated by others

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that sounds like a cool trip! weird that the being wasn't more friendly.... I generally try to be very "open"... like if something doesn't make since.. I might try to get a clarification of some sort... but usually Ill just let go and let it blow my mind...

I tend to see a lot of Griffin type beings , who together , as one, turn a giant wheel... (like gears/crank shaft) on a clock... they don't frighten me... but I get the feeling that you wouldn't want to annoy one. As I have seen them get pissed and bite at each other

the being was being friendly, especially since he was explaining the death-clean up-rebirth concept in comparison with my job in reality. i just got overwhelmed by the entire experience during the experience and questioned his authority by asking him "why?" kinda like Job in the Bible questioning God and God coming down to earth in the form of a storm and talking very seriously to Job. The intensity and just how "alien" the entire thing was just wigged me out for being my first breakthrough, goes to show how reading can only prepare you sooo much. I'm finally able to integrate the experience. I plan on blasting off next time under a different setting and do it outside in the woods in the sunshine.