hi guys
Have done a good few trips now and having some trouble.
It seems that i keep blocking myself from experiencing my trip in the best way. I will use an example to illustrate what i mean.
I normally need to spit just after I take a rip, so i keep a glass nearby and normally quickly spit and then lay down. Tonight, i did a much larger hit than normal, 60mg. And it was on me before i could put the glass down. Also, before going to hyperspace i tried to concentrate on allowing myself to see what was there to be shown, to open up. And i guess in a sense, one could say i was asking to be shown.
The method i use normally is to hit one massive rip and hold it in for ages. It seems to work a treat. But today i was caught with this glass clenched in my hand and somehow, the machines(my entities) seemed angry at me for not being totally prepared after having asked to be shown what they wanted to show me. So the anxiety of knowing i was not prepared, and also feeling like these machines were not happy with my mental state didn't start the trip off well. Normally i see these morphing mechanical structures with cogs and arms sticking out, spinning and twisting about. Tonight they were doing the usual, but much more intensely and i really felt as though i was being told that if i ask for something then i BETTER BE READY to receive it, because things can go very wrong if i am not. After the initial craziness i sort of settled in but then something else happened. I get these thoughts from the real world sometimes like, "is my bedroom door closed" and then those thoughts escalate out of control, to the point where they ruin the trip. Not that i get fixated on my door being open, but the chain of thought goes something like this:
Is my door open...I don't know...Who cares...stop thinking about your stupid door...you are ruining it...im not comfortable...fuck why did i have to think about the door.
This song was on during the trip, the best DMT music i have yet experienced. Brought tears.
http://www.youtube.com/w...PCg&feature=related
Its a poor example, but you get the idea. My question is if there are any techniques to prevent this?