PRE-CONDITIONS(mind)Set: Excellent, very happy, it had just gone midnight and was my Birthday - WooHoo!!!
(physical condition) Set: Getting a bit podgy tese days, too much food / beer, not enough exercise
Setting (location): My house, living room
time of day: 12-1 am
recent drug use: Lots of Cannabis throughout the day, a beer at supper time, 25 mg MXE insufflated at 9-10 pm ish.
PARTICIPANTGender: M
body weight: 75KG
known sensitivities:
history of use: Has been known to SMOALK MOAR
BIOASSAYSubstance(s): Cannabis, MXE, Changa
Dose(s): 1 gram Cannabis, 25mg MXE, 40mg 1:1 Changa
Method of administration: Smoked, Snorted, SMOALKED
Intensity (overall): 4
Evaluation / notes: Erm... Wow!
OPTIONAL
Pleasantness: 3
Implesantness: 3
Visual Intensity: 4
AFTER-EFFECTS
Hangover: 0
Afterglow: 2.5
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REPORTI'm going to start this report with an apology. I am sorry, but the words on this page will not, can not, will never even scratch the surface of this experience, but as with all important experiences, i feel it is necessary to at least try and document them, so here we go...
The events that take place happen over two days. I started smoking weed at around 10 am on the 27th, and continued to get stoned over the course of the day, which was very nice
After dinner i thought it would be a good idea to supplement my heavily stoned brain with some MXE, just a touch, nothing too heavy as I find this compound synergises with Cannabis pretty spectacularly. I enjoyed a very relaxed stoned / dissociated evening with my girlfriend chatting, listening to music, watching a bit of telly, that sort of thing. At midnight I opened a couple of presents and cards, and was by that stage in a fantastic mood, feeling well loved by many people, blessed to be alive, and also rather high
At this point I felt a strong urge, almost a command, that I should smoalk a little Spice. What a fantastic idea! It had been a couple of weeks, it was a symbolic date, I was in a great mood, not too tired... Set - check, Setting - yup, definitely check...
The next question, which blend should I use?! Hmmm, I was saving that last bit of Flower Power for a friend, but it was my LAST bit, it is the best thing I have ever smoked, and it's my Birthday, so what the hell, I'm having it!
the recipe can be found here This stuff has always resulted in deeply touching, emotionally charged trips that have always been very nurturing and meaningful. I need to make more!
So I loaded up 40 mg (20mg DMT) - on the lower end of my dosages, I wasn't too sure how it would interact with the MXE, even though I have heard good things about the combo, the only time I tried it before, I felt like I was shut out of hyperspace and was doubtful about trying it again. Thank God I did though!!! I lit a candle, as is customary before I take any journey, and meditated for a while. I don't know how long, but it was quite a while - the cannabis and mxe allowed me to drift through my conciousness and still my mind, which was a very pleasant experience in its self, my heart rate was slow and steady, it was time. Torch is fired up, GVG raised to my lips, the whole lot is inhaled in one long, deep lungfull. I had forgotten how nice this blend tasted. Delicious warm steam flowed through the mouthpiece, the wads of vapor filled my lungs and I prepared myself for sweet sweet anihilation.
Next thing I know BAM! I broke though so suddenly and quickly, it was hard to adjust. I am no longer in my living room. I am a part of a large organic structure, it is squeezing me, it is in pain. I am trying to make sense of what is going on, I am being crushed, panic starts to rise in me. Sh*t. What is happening?! Calm yourself Purgey, let what ever happens happen, don't fight it, you know
what happened last time... I let go. I relaxed. I still had the sensation of being on the verge of physically crushed. I was being squeezed through this organic tunnel, which was infused with reams of lessons, symbols, emotions, I could see the pain we as a species were inflicting on the planet, I could FEEL it, I kept asking why we did this to ourselves and our host? What gives us the right?! I felt a struggle, an emergence, a real will from many people for this to change.
Every inch of the way I could feel the pain of a mother - mother earth? Wait. No. I am connected to a mother. I am being born?! My head was tilted back and my head started to emerge. My legs went from crossed to straightened out and the pressure relieved itself. The light of the candle emerged out of the fractal madness and I was *sort of* back in the room. I am still trying to make sense of what happened next. The whole room was swirling, and I felt relief. The air in the room was one of jubilation, it felt like there was a party being thrown in my honour and what kept circulating in my head was that the Nexus was there in spirit. It was like a halloween party - this is the best way I can describe how the room looked - yes, a fractal halloween party, and the entities shooting about the room were Nexians, I knew this intuitively. This was incredibly bizarre. But I was glad that you guys were there too celebrating with me, whether you knew it or not
This calmed down and the light of the candle got much brighter.
A new presence filled the room. I could not see much beyond the warm bright light and this feeling of PRESENCE. An almighty presence. I was in the presence of God, I knew this,
I had basked in his glow before . God was there. I was stunned. I don't know about you, but having the Creator in your living room, paying you a visit is quite something, being aware of such a powerful, divine presence is something that keeps me coming back to these sacred plants. I don't take DMT as just another high, it is my place of worship, somewhere I can truly connect to my God, somewhere I can learn, grow, and be truly astonished, some where I can gain insight and perspective, and most definitely some where TRULY special, untainted by man's greed and corruption.
I was left basking in a magnificent afterglow. My mind felt so clear. So peaceful, so new. I had been re born. Literally. I slowly put the pieces back together again, and re-examined what had just taken place. The last few times I have partaken, I had been smoking 60 mg 1:1 Changa - 10 mgs more DMT than I had smoked that night, but this was far more intense than even those face melting journeys. The dose didn't matter. That experience had been preordained, it had to be. It happened on my Birthday, I hadn't even considered the thought of a re-birth type trip that day, or at all. This was a Birthday lesson, one I will hold close to my heart for the rest of my days.
Like I said at the start, this is such a brief over view it is almost laughable! There were so many themes going on at once I didn't know where to focus my attention, life, death, pain, fear, regeneration, man's squandering of his time on this planet with ridiculous consumerism - the ingratitude we show the planet, and even our own mothers.
I ended the session by saying a prayer of thanks for the lesson, and for my very existence - I am truly grateful for the wonderful life I have been granted, and try to remain as humble and grounded as I possibly can in everyday life - I am determined to be the change that I want to see in the world, and boy does DMT help facilitate that!
The next morning I spoke to my Mother on the phone, told her that I loved her deeply and thanked her for giving birth to me. That felt good, I need to do it more often. I have often taken her for granted and she is a wonderful person who deserves more.
So there you have it. I hope you enjoyed the snippets I brought back, I don't write up every journey that I have, but this one really deserved at least an attempt.
Much Peace, Love and Unity to you all.
Lots of Love,
Purges x
Lose Control, Free My Soul, Break Me Open, Make Me Whole."DMT kicked my balls off" - od3