38mg Changa (1:1)this is twice the initial dose.
sit down on the floor of the dark room. candle dancing above and to the right.
slow down the breathing. pulse is only slightly elevated.
take the first hit. water bubbling. got about 1/3 of it there. hold it in, count to twenty, let it go.
can't stop now to watch the show. starting to feel the nitroush-ish physical effects. things look different, yet the same.
get that lighter going. roasted the entire top. shit, it's all on fire. tap it out, keep inhaling. arms going rubbery. think I got the rest. set it down, hold it in, count. 1..2..3..4..5..6... ...10 ...13? am I still holding it? ok, exhale.
light blue, filament thing mandala begins to twist clockwise
LEFT BRAIN: I am never doing this again.
pause
RIGHT BRAIN: Or am I?
breathe in, breathe out.
the tile floor now has a grid of translucent pulsating q-bert pyramids color shifting in pastel neon yellow, orange, purple and pink. the room still exists.
LEFT BRAIN: Look at the donkey color show. <-- ego fighting
breathe in, breathe out
LEFT BRAIN: This is very intense, only five minutes.
RIGHT BRAIN: You'll be ok. This is what it is.
breathe in
LEFT BRAIN: Difficult experience, ride it out. Don't want to meet an entity right now.
i can smell the changa mix in the air. floor still pulsating. two areas begin to fill up with green diamond shaped pieces.
breathe out, breathe in
steam engine sound beginning to reduce in volume. just remembered that you're supposed to close your eyes. amorphous blob in electric red, blue, yellow and white.
lungs feeling the cool peppermint, light perspiration on my skin. i have skin?
i swallow, it pulls me back for a second.
floor grid lessening in intensity, room returning to "normal". sitting in the calm pseudosilence. the candle wick clearly audible over the calm as it consumes the oxygen around us (me (it)).
now comes the cosmic hug. a smile and laughter. all senses raised. lips and fingers now feel like a mushroom trip. sit for another five or ten, appreciating everything.
when able, get up walk out and see my cat sleeping. she senses no danger. dark star 5/11/72 carries me through the afterglow. 30-40 minutes of float. hungry now. tired. sleep.
woke up today and felt like it was the first day of school. maybe it is.