Alright, here it goes.....

I'm new to the DMT experience. I've had around 30-40 encounters. Some have been amazing, some have been frightening, some have been liberating. Yesterday I had an experience that quite frankly disturbed me immensely.

I have yet to purchase a mg scale so I've practiced dosage amounts to where I pretty much have a good idea what said dose will provide as far as intensity goes. Without scale I'm guestimating 25-35mg.

The onset was typical to what I've experienced before. Eventually I ended up in some room where I could see all these (I'll call them child toys) in front of me. They were different shapes, cubes, spheres, plus signs and such. They were all made out of energy/colors and were vibrating and rotating in space. For some reason, I heard myself say "why am I hear...am I a baby...do I need to grow up". My thoughts now are because I saw what I perceived to be child toys had something to do with me personally...but now I'm not so sure.

So then I feel my awareness expand exponentially. I can still sense this 3D reality we all tell ourselves we exist in, but I can perceive my consciousness/awareness is now existing in a completely different realm....but its still right here....but where ever it is, its VAST!

I begin to perceive a separation to the left and right....like two separate rooms and I'm looking at a corner that defines them. One is "dark" and one is "light". I begin to have the feeling that I need to make a choice....but here is when my mind starts to come into play. I start thinking...."this is suppose to be infinite possibility...how can there only be two choices". Then I begin to try to go into one room or the other...at this point I don't care....I just don't want to be looking at this corner/separation anymore....I want to go.

Then this is where things get kind of crappy. Where the corner that separates the two rooms is...begins to form an open door into a dark closet or maybe a bathroom. The light from behind me shines in and I see this small boy. Not like any of the beings/entities/energy forms I've seen before in my experiences but like a real 3D human. I hate describing this, but I have to......

The little boy is covered in blood...he's standing and facing the wall. So instantly upon "seeing" this my mind begins to race. I have a little boy and my mind takes over and I begin to fear its him. To this moment I don't know if I feared it was him, it could be him in the future, it was me as a little boy or what the hell. But I didn't like it. I also remember thinking I could just open my eyes and it would go away. But I wanted to ride it out to find some meaning/truth/what the hell it was. I could feel I was getting caught in a trap/loop....it sucked.

At that point I started coming out of it. Needless to say I sat there and thought, and though, and thought about it. After a half hour or so I couldn't stand it anymore and had to go back in. I did another round and went in with one intent, one question. When I got there I remember seeing some aztec type face made of energy and I asked it if my Son was ok, was he going to be ok. I was told he was, that he would be fine. I felt feelings of lightness and happiness.

That for obvious reasons made me feel better. But I'm still stuck with what the heck was that other vision? Was it my Son, was it me, was it some other message? I haven't gone back since....maybe its that DMT self regulating aspect I've read about saying, "hey dude, put the pipe down".

Weird.

Any thoughts or constructive comments would be greatly appreciated.

Frankly, I don't think anyone would have a good time looking at a bloody boy, especially if it was perceived as yours.

What you have to remember is that it is just DMT. It will not carry over into our dimension. The visions are abstracts of your mind and you made a conscious choice to explore it. I would never want to see that either! But spice does what it does.. good or bad!

I don't think you should bode on it too much, 30-40 journeys and that's the worst you've seen? some reports here are much worse. Not trying to sound rude at all so please don't take it that way! Just remember all is a reflection, and has nothing to do with real life!

Love, peace and safe travels~

No I don't think you're being rude at all, and quite frankly, thank you for replying!

I've had some other frightening experiences, but they were always very abstract/chaotic and such with lights and faces morphing in and out. This one was different in that when I saw the little boy he looked just like a normal 3D human.....he wasn't buzzing with color/energy and morphing into different forms.....he was just there facing the wall. I did sense feelings of guilt/shame/depression. Never sensed any of these in past experiences.

So when you say its just DMT and won't carry over into our dimension, how do you know this. Don't worry, I don't have any concerns that entities/beings from another dimensions are suddenly going to come flying into our reality here and start screwing with everyone. But knowing that we know so little about this place, how can we say that we may not be viewing potential future events? Or maybe past lives? Sorry, I feel like I'm rambling now.

I know I shouldn't be dwelling on any of these experiences for to long.....and I won't. I guess my take on DMT space is that its similar to dreams. Now mind you this is my personal opinion....but I view some dreams as having absolutely no meaning. You're just in them, you see things and that's it. Others on the other hand can be VERY prophetic and its our job to decide which is which and what the message is if there is one. Then of course to attempt to incorporate that lesson (if there is one) into our daily 3D experiences.

Does any of that make sense?