been ther3 to must say 
and dont fell bad about the stamps ex 
i was a working man my self 
i think the problem comes with the realization that hard work (in mordern culture) does not always pay off
take a break from your journeys and such (i had to )
and your taking a break from work as well (good its not a bad thang )
sit around your house for a month really 
and just relax and be a bit more selfish
read the Return To Rama  in this time 

 (sci fi )
i worked for 22 years trying to bide my time hoping all will get better
then i to lost my house after a year or 2 of struggle  
 droped my job went on unemployment (wich i thought only scummy people did ect wrong )
 and whent and visited close friends and family 
people i could talk to 
who ( I ) was open with 
the world was a vampire then 
you see for me i new what the answer was for me but i kept lyeing to my self o
 i dont have time 
i need to work (in the sence of "normal " jobs and such )
i need this and that ect 
when i realised i did not need all this stuff i aquried 
and started really doing my art and travling ive been better
i only make about 1 fourth  a month now as i used to 
i dont get the latest wacha call its and such 
but im much more free just a rent note and internet bill 
so i can plan a trip every 4 months and save for it 
my life is simpe now 
 just like my spelling ability and thats fine 
thats all it was 
this world is crazy 
and yes so are you 
and thats why you fit in so nicely 
youll be fine it just takes a bit to realize this 
You'd better be prepared for the jump into hyperspace. It's unpleasantly like being drunk."
"What's so unpleasant about being drunk?"
"You ask a glass of water."
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