I double dosed due to throwing up my first dose. It kicked in and my “thought voice” became really quiet and clearly audible and it was racing in every direction. I was very uncomfortably aware of the ayahuasca analogue in my stomachs. All my physical urges were pushed into my face, hunger thirst the urge to smoke a cigarette and joint. I missed my family and I loved my fiancée, but at the same time was utterly bewildered with her, and as an extension myself. All was turning alien in the ever so familiar psychedelic fashion. I feel as if my awareness shifted from human to the baseline of consciousness that lies beneath. I was no longer capable of thinking of things in terms of the way they relate to me, I could only think of them in a weird objective sense. I’m now convinces consciousness is foundational to existence and the matter and space used to channel it are notion of the overarching awareness of being

fascinating experience. Have you heard of Don Hoffman? He's given a Ted talk (among other videos / books) about his theory that consciousness is primary to reality, not space/time and objects. He's specialized in math, philosophy and psychology. Right now he's working out a mathematical model of consciousness, from which he should be able to derive all our other physical theories.

He starts from evolutionary theory and works his way to an understanding that our whole world is a construct of our mind-- not that we make everything up, but rather we only see symbolic icons of what actually is, like icons on a desktop-- they are not the files or electrons on your hard drive itself, the world in itself, but just representative of it, and they are what allow you to use your computer without being burdened with having to know all the physics behind it. Likewise, the objects we see in space are only "eye candy", simplified versions of what's really there, that allow us to reproduce and function in the world. Time is the same thing, just a qualia, a perception that allows us to function as something more fit in evolutionary terms.

Is the physical world supposed to be a byproduct of evolving etherial consciousness or does he theorize it to be an intentional "creation" of the MIND with some purpose?

I used to believe, before I first took any psychedelics or looked deeper into the nature of consciousness, that the entire universe was the "brain" of God, and that its consciousness was an emergent phenomena of the infinitely complex electromagnetic and gravitational connections between every atom in the universe, much like your consciousness emerges from your brain cells. pretty hippie dippie for a materialist reductionist 15 year old, I think. now I hold this what was then a belief as a theory. It was a dmt trip in which I was visited by thirty or so 7 foot grey aliens in my living room that shattered my reductionist view of existence. Im jealous of the people who don't have to sit with this uncertainty, the book believers, you know the ones.

Anyway that same dmt trip brought forth the notion that all human existence is, is an experiment of either god or alien entities or something I haven't even considered, to color their soul with human experience. I've yet to find a reason why.

if you have any thoughts on these thoughts, methinks id like to hear them.

Outstanding. I lived this too so I know what you mean! So refreshing to hear about it. For me its been on changa though.

GusF I think this too. When you see a tree or look into an animals eye's on a really shocking dose of shrooms you see the amazing complexity of what you are observing...But this is with evyerthing on DMT. One see's the complexity of every thought, feeling, life path, of the universe. People who have not brokenthrough can't possibly know what is possible in the universe; it turns out everything is possible, everything can exist. Every scent, sensation, feeling, nugget of wisdom, technology, life form, animal, plant, structure of things in every way possible. Its all a bundle of experience, of endless posiblity. Millions of ways in which something can exist and experience. This is the complexity of what we are dealing with; every pathway and possiblity exists.

Jackoval to adress your final concern, I've thought this too also. To me the reason behind that idea is that the human experience is absolutley amazing. I've always felt that "they" were really happy with how I am living my life. I wish I could say more about this subject as I think about this all the time but cant seem to get the jucie flowing now xD

its funny you say they're pleased with the way you live your life, they usually shove my nose in my shit so to speak