6 mushroom trips, 2 dozen + aya attempts, and tried smoking dmt 10 times at it never worked. until yesterday
so... i get it now. for 5 days in a row i dropped 225mg harmaline, than 80mg dmt and it never worked, just my mind would enter racing mode...until yesterday. i got distracted by a youtube video and the DMT soaked in coke for 20mins, and the harmaline was in my gut for a extra 10 minutes before taking the dmt.....(my guess is acidic coke turned it into the salt form, and the extra time in my gut helped effect the maoi)
I was not expecting it to work i took it to get my mind racing a million miles a hour before i went for my daily 6 mile walk. and so when it kicked off i was not expecting anything like those effects, i fucking hated it, i wanted it to stop, STOP STOP STOP. safety in case i did not like the trip was the only thing i had no prepared for, and i am glad now, at the time no. if i had been ready to kill this trip than i would never of touched psychedelics again, and i would never of received me truth.
So i laid there in misery, shaking, shuddering for a hour or 2 and than the roaring maelstrom calmed and "spirit, entities" of mother aya took me into her arms and connected 10 million dots through out my life and taught me so much.
I finally get it... i only wish i had been writing it down as it happened...
also i have not slept in 30x hours..damn insomnia side effect MUST CLOSE EYES >_>
i am not a religious person, i do not believe in ghosts and shit...but the way my mind is patching this whole week together its that aya had this giant plan to bring me to my lowest over the 5 day span than raise me back above. even though its just a chemical that could have no master plan. my god this is a mind fuck.