Hello.
Im new here and very happy to find this forum.
I have some experience with shrooms 17 years ago and it left me with the feeling there is something more to this life.
This thoughts has been with me all these years,
My last shroom trips was very terrifying and i lost my ability to let go.
The thing that i loved so much was not for me anymore..
Now 17 years later i started to research about DMT and found this site,
The rapid onset made me think that maybe this is the solution for me,
Followed a tek from this site with success,
Scared like never before now i was sitting with my wife beside me and holding
the machine loaded with 60mg.
Am i really gonna do this? why? and my wife says Go, and i go.
Inhaled very much smoke in the first hit,
1,2,3,4 music fades away, 5,6 it felt like i was shrinking,fast. exhaled.
Did not know what i was holding in my hand, the machine had no neck but i put the lighter to it and inhaled, now i was on the edge of existence, total chaos rumbling around with gravel and water, and i felt a stick picking at my teeth (my wife trying to make me take a third hit)
The experience lasted about 5min, total chaos, came out very happy and laughing.
My fear was gone.
i did this 4 times in a week with the exact same results, gravel and water not very pleasant. but not scary.
the fifth time, like before rumbling around in a fast pace then pop im back,
but this time i right away loaded it with 30mg more and hit it, one hit then...
the chaos slowed down, i felt warmth, love.
Beside me was a very high tower of snakes, moving in a way i cant describe, at the same time this white light on my other side was doing something in the side of my body.
The feeling was very sensual and seducing, we all was moving upwards, the next thing i remember was a green room with the letter L all over the walls, they where spinning but slowed down to a halt, i was in a place.
There was a catlike beeing there and i said welcome, then poff i was back in my room.
started crying and laughing at the same time. This was an experience i never had in my life.
For about 2 weeks i could not stop thinking about this and decided to go back,
took out the mesh and opened it , full of yellow goo, but i was thinking what if its not enough, so i load it with 50mg more and hit it full blast,
one hit, 1,2,3,4,5 gone. dont remember a thing, after 15min i was thrown in my sofa with true terror, the feeling of people there, my wife,kids, my boss, police, paramedics, mom.
all was looking at me very dissapointed, i felt shame..
This was to much and i know what i did wrong, i forgot the respect psychedelics need.
The next day day i got a hangover feeling.
DMT deserves respect.
Thanks everyone.