I’m writing this 5 days after it all happened. I would say I have more details now than I had the first or the second night.

I must say I smoked weed the first night after it happened, which helped me gather more information. Before the weed I only had glimpses of what happened, I wouldn’t be able to connect it the way I wrote my story now.

Also, on day 2 I took a chocolate which contained magic mushrooms. Half of the chocolate was supposed to make me trip, I took 2 thirds (⅔). It felt weak, I was laying down, with closed eyes. On one occasion I heard a voice saying “hi” and I freaked out. I didn’t open my eyes, but felt I was back to base. Then I let go again, hearing a voice again, a different one, which also freaked me out. I know it was all in my head, because it was silence, my wife was laying next to me doing nothing and she didn’t hear a thing. I got up, to relax a bit, I had a feeling that I’m really on shrooms, I was feeling happy. Once again, I layed down, looking into the ceiling. Some lines appeared and I think I saw what it looked like a woman’s face. It was not really consistent, and maybe I was trying to hard, and imagined it. I close my eyes again, I let go, and I heard percusion like sounds, congas, it lasted for a few seconds, I didn’t freak out but it stopped on it’s own. I was seeing yet another woman’s face, from the side. It was only a line, making the shape of a woman’s head. I layed down a little bit longer, my wife asked me how I felt ad I got up again. At this moment I ate the remaining chocolate and I was in a state of being really high, a state I’m too much familiar with, so I just set on my computer and played games for the next 3-4 hours. It was already gone when I went to bed (5 in the morning).

Now for the important part of this story:

The day for my toad experience has finally arrived. I visited my facilitator and sound healing therapist in Mexico City. The place was spacious, with good vibes, dominating eastern culture with some Mexican history.
We talked for a while, I shared my findings about the molecule. My library include this forum, Dr. Rick Strassman’s book, few youtubers who I follow. I also shared my beliefs, my experience into meditation, Buddhism and what are my fears. I also mentioned that I always overthink everything.
My dose was measured, I now know it was 70µg.

I got to sit down on a mattress on the ground, big enough so I can lay down on it.
My ceremony was to include some Tibetan Singing Bowls. This was so I can have a guide along side me during the journey.

It was explained to me that I need to breathe deep, exhale from the mouth and on the next inhale to start slowly inhaling the smoke from the pipe. Also I was told to try keeping my mouth shut with my hand not to let everything out, which can lead to not having the full effect.

I got in a comfortable sitting position, from where I can just easily lay down. The pipe was filling with the smoke and I started inhaling. For me, it was not difficult, but a bit lengthy process which I can compare to cannabis in bong. The difference here was, I really didn’t want any of the smoke to go to waste. I didn't mind the taste. in fact I've had weed worse than this.
While inhaling, I immediately felt something is changing in my visual perception, sound, my head space, and I got excited. I got a bit of a smile on my face, or so I though and waved “goodbye” to my wife, who was sitting and watching me from nearby.
So, I smoked all there was in the pipe in one big hit, put my hand on my mouth, closed my eyes and slowly layed back on the mattress. I heard countdown from 10. 10, 9, 8, 7, a very loud sound in my head, my usual closed eye “visuals” started getting very bright, not sure if white or any color really. Countdown continues, 6, 5.. I am not sure if I got to hear it finish..

Meanwhile, my wife is recording it all, and I have a third person story happening at this moment.

Minute 0:30 - After laying down, and the countdown is finished, my guide got to sit by the instrument, but she immediately noticed my hand is still on my mouth. She comes to me, while I have smoke coming through my fingers, takes my hand away from my mouth, and my hand drops beside me like I am in deep sleep, or dead.
At minute 1 I started breathing heavily, and then at minute 2 my mouth started shaking uncontrollably.

After laying down, I was feeling how my body was falling asleep, it had a similar feel to how a possible lucid dream starts for me. In short, in a normal night where I decide I want to try lucid this is what happens:
I can feel my legs, arms, and then stomach, sometimes neck go in a comfortable position from where my brain “turns them off” and my body falls asleep. In normal conditions, this happens very rarely for me, and usually, like 99% of the time, I wake up, having to go sleep normally if I want to sleep at all. My problem is, I do a sudden move with my feet, or a finger on my arm, or I get itchy feeling and need to scratch my feet for example.
While I experienced this similar “process” in my trip, I got to shut down my body almost instantly. My brain or my ego was trying to comprehend all this, but the sound was getting louder and it started to change frequency. From time to time I was hearing the sounds and vibration from the bowls. Everything I knew was gone, I had no connection with my body, the room, or anything else. When I think about it now it felt like the sounds in my head, the occasional sound from the bowls that I was hearing and this bright light in front of me was everything that existed for me at those moments.The time has stopped. Then suddenly I had this very weird feeling from was I believe was my stomach. A feeling I should know, a feeling that feels very good, I could almost taste how good it was. I was having what I would call now an orgasm, just maybe million times better and stronger. It was so good that I think I might have actually passed out from it.

Minute 4 - I open my mouth and mumble “this is…”, and then again few seconds later, “this is…”, then in my native language (which is not English) I say: “it’s the best”. Then follows a deep exhale from my mouth after which I make a sound “mmmmmmmmm”, which my wife later explains that it’s similar to what I might do while we make love. My sex sound continues few more times on my exhales.

The feeling of having an orgasm was too much for me, which made me connect with my breathing, I was trying to calm myself and breathe normally, but the ecstasy like feeling I was having, which I compared to orgasm was not going away. This made me actually feel my breathing, then I felt what I believe was my mouth and at one point I remember exhaling from my mouth, with a sound, which translates to “mmmm” on the camera. In my head the sounds were not really loud, they felt and sounded alien like, or like I hear myself for the first time. I remember I was able to completely calm myself. I was aware of my body at this moment, and my thoughts and my overthinking kinda all came back. I had a very good feeling, I could remember my orgasm as the climax of the trip and I actually had only one thought. “I want more”.

Minute 6 - I pull up my head, with a smile on my face and say “I want more”. I got no reaction from either my wife or my guide. I lay down again, my breathing is normal, it looks like I’m sleeping or meditating.

I was thinking in my head, trying to communicate with something, or so I hoped I would. I had a feeling of still being somewhere, a feeling that I’m still under the effects of the substance. My thoughts include: “OK, please continue, I am now calm. I want to go further, take me somewhere, show me something else”. I have no more memories from this moment on and I don’t know how much time has gone by.

Minute 10 - My guide says “How do you feel?”. Few seconds later, I open my eyes, get up in a sitting position and start to talk.

Suddenly I hear “How do you feel?” the sound itself felt very unfamiliar, the voice, the way it was all interpreted in my mind felt weird, like I was expecting it to sound differently, but I realised I didn’t really know how it was supposed to sound. When I go back now, I can say it felt like I was hearing for the first time, I was experiencing life for the first time. I wasn’t aware I knew English, but when I heard it I remembered it. I didn’t know how to open my eyes, but when I tried, it felt natural. The room was clearly brighter from before I took the substance. The colors were more saturated, I loved how yellow looked.

After I got up, I tried to explain parts of what happened. At this point there is no camera, so I don’t remember the full conversation. I remember talking about not being able to let go. One of the first thoughts that came in my mind after I heard my guide asking me how I feel, was for a deceased close friend. I felt I need to take it out, to share it with them. It is something I have never shared with anyone. It involves few things I did while in a very unstable emotional state, some of them I shared with close ones, but this one thing never left my mind, until this moment in this room. Funny fact, I had planned to share it with my wife and my best friend before knowing I would be consuming 5-meo-DMT, just haven’t decided when to do it.

After sharing this, I said I want more, and I felt like I really have nothing else to hold me back. To this moment I really don’t remember any regrets, fears or past traumas that can hold me back anymore.

While talking I was noticing the taste and flavor in my mouth. It was like I was breathing cold air, it was harder to swallow than normal. I didn’t really mind the taste, for some awkward reason it reminds me to the taste of LSD. I would say the 10-13 minutes of communication felt like a come down on LSD.

So, I go a second round, 23 minutes after my first trip. I decided not to have a sound guide this time. So, it was going to be a total silence the next 10 minutes.

I exhaled deeply, and started inhaling the substance. Once again I found myself sucking all the smoke from the pipe. This time I was more calm and I didn’t put my hand on my mouth. The countdown begins, 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, I layed down, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, I exhaled, got some smoke out, I was already in it, I closed my eyes. The sound in my head was very loud, I was losing touch with this reality, it was a familiar feeling.

This time on my recording, I can see myself not doing anything unusual, my breathing was normal, no shaking, no sounds. I layed down for 7 minutes, after which I opened my eyes.

I found myself in total silence, there was no light, the buzzing or sounds in my head have dissapeared. I was thinking about opening my eyes. I opened my eyes, and found myself looking into the ceiling. The room was very bright, and it started normalizing very quickly. There was this diamond shaped ceiling light. I looked at it, and a felt happiness. I was possitive, a smile appeared on me. I then looked behind me, there was this painting. I felt a similar feeling, I felt love, warmth, and happiness again. The smile on my face was getting bigger. I felt unity, closeness, connection with everything real, I might say I felt one with the universe, I knew we are all one, or atleast we came from the same ‘one’. It felt wonderful knowing everything is going to be fine, everything is perfect the way it is. It was a feeling (feeling is the only word I have for it), a feeling that is indescribable, that is not from this world. A feeling of receiving something I didn’t remember anything about. I repeatedly looked in the ceiling light and the painting. After maybe 10-15 seconds I released no one knew I’m back, because I haven’t said a word and I haven’t moved either my arms, legs or head. I wanted to share what I was feeling, but at the same time I felt I can’t, no, not can’t it was more like I didn’t need and I didn’t want to share this with anyone. I just need to keep enjoying it until it’s here. Next thing, I was thinking of moving with my arms so I can pull myself from the ground. I knew how to do it, but it felt like I’m going to do it for the first time ever. The second I tried it, it all came back, it felt natural and familiar. I pull myself up, and sit in a comfortable position.
I have the feeling I went somewhere, but I have no memories of it.. I tried talking, trying to say I have some answers that are impossible to share. They understood. For the first time in my life I felt like I don’t need to say anything and that keeping it to myself, without even trying to explain it was the best way to preserve whatever this is.

The next 20 minutes, I again have the same taste and feeling that I was on LSD. I don’t know why, that is how it felt to me.
About an hour later, I was completely back to base. We went to have a lunch, I was feeling very talkative and positive. The feeling or whatever it was, that made me smile and feel like we are all one was fading. It felt like it is a distant memory, something that happened a long time ago and not something from hour and a half ago.

To sum it up, the first time I did it, after pulling my head and asking for more, I don’t remember anything happening afterwards, so I have about 4 minutes of blanks. Also I would assume from minute 2 to minute 4 I also have blanks.
The second time I did, I literally don’t remember anything, no going to sleep, no ecstasy, it seems I was out for 7 minutes without holding onto anything while it lasted. The only thing I had was this feeling I can still remember, of pure happiness and love. A feeling which is also fading as I’m writing this.

I’m currently up in the mountains in San Jose del Pacifico, going to consume mushrooms from last season, which ended in October. They were given to me in a jar of honey, fresh.. I would assume I cannot keep them long after opening the jar. I have no scale with me, but plan on eating a lot, if not all of it in one sitting. It is supposed to be one of the most potent mushroom in the world, Psilocybe Caerulescens. I haven’t count them but there are more than 20 mushrooms in the jar. Which again, being fresh I don’t think it’s a lot?

Thanks for reading!