Hey BeeSyrup, welcome!
I can relate to a lot of what you said about yourself, thanks for sharing.
Although it's hard sometimes, I would rather stay as an outcast of society, it's too messed up, I seem to only really get along with freaks and weirdos, anyway, which suits me just fine.
I also started very young with psychedelics, with cannabis at 12, and mushrooms at 15 or 16, including some ridiculous doses, almost 1/2 oz one time at 17 years old.
I love the way you can see yourself from an outsider perspective on them, really gives you a good look at yourself.
I always like hearing about how psychedelics changed people's lives for the better, I'm glad you had that experience.
I do believe they are a gift as well, and can benefit the human race as a whole, however, I believe that DMT will appeal to those who are ready for it, and they will seek it out themselves. I don't think it is as well suited to "turn on the world" as LSD was. Not everyone is ready for that experience.
Welcome to the Nexus, I think you'll like it here.
Take care