So it is about 2 weeks after my first breakthrough, figured Id share. I had wanted my buddy to try it so invited him over, had two 50 mg doses ready and was excited to try my new oil rig out, I litteraly bought it for this reason only. After my buddys hit, he only reported a slight buzz, hmm maybe not enough? Added a bit to my pile so not to dissapoint.
Immediately after taking my hit the bong in my began to break apart into round pixel like particles, and i fell to the floor from the foot stool i was seated on. Next I imagine was what is commonly called " The Tunnel", it was a swirling kalidescope (spelling?) of primarily yellow and orange with some red triangles, large swirling down to small in the center, and then i began to see a clown, i believe it was the color scheme i was experiencing that i connected to a circus like enviroment, and materialized a clown. As im stuck in this world periodic clown flashes, i get scared that id be there forever, that the colors will continue to make this clown here, and seeing the clown will only make me think about clowns more, and ILL BE STUCK IN THIS CLOWN WORLD FOROEVER, as my thoughts keep reciprocating this idea, i had to get out.
Without being aware of it until my friend relayed with sober eyes, I immedeatly stood up, quite fast apparently. Next thing i know i hear my friend telling me to keep my pants on, i come to shirt off in the midst of pulling my pants down, and until that point completely forgot i smoked Dmt. I believe me stripping down was preparation for hyperspace, that is what i do when i head to bed, and i believe my subconscious knew it was time to get in a comfortable place
This is where it gets a bit muddy. After telling me to keep my pants on and myself remembering im on dmt, I say "OH MY GOD, I BROKE THROUGH!" But it hadn't yet begun.
As im excited to be experiencing this, i feel an overwhelming sensation come over me. As i bent over to grip the couch it was as if my entire self exploded into the walls of the room, all the objects in the room, and beyond. The walls were almost trasparent, black like space with green "circuitry" throughout, as i coursed through everything. i say that because it reminded me of circuitry on micro chips.
Next, all of a sudden my friends face, i see fear uncertainty, but initially i didnt even know who he was and was very scared myself, he smiles and says " whats up buddy"? As i recognize him and remember this is my friend and im safe, i throw my arms around him and give him a huge hug without a thought, the hug felt like the entire room was a blanket ( again yellow and orange) that wrapped me up, and kept me safe during the embrace. He sat me down and i kept my arm around him petting his hair and rubbing his knee, i know weird. In hindsight im sure this made him quite uncomfortable, but at the time it felt great, like we were melded together, one with eachother and the world. I forget to mention during my hyperspace travel i was apparently flailing around the room bringing my tv to fall on the end table and break.
As i realize how trivial everything in our world is, it became clear. I stand up again saying "oh my god" as the messages flood my brain. Unable to tranfer to words to properly explain myself, i guess i just resorted to body language. I got up and said "so i can do this", and punched my lamp, threw my end table kicked my tv, already laying on the ground. My friend quickly and firmly grabbed me to stop the destruction. I see the fear and uncertainty again, i try to reassure him say " its ok, its ok, its just stuff", well words from a man, who clearly just lost his mind, werent very convincing to him. Back to body language, i say " or i can do this", and start rubbing his face and head being silly, which makes him smile and laugh. Im sure the point of my actions werent clear, but at the time it made sense to me.
My point was that our emotions is what drives our actions which dictate our environment. But more than that, other peoples emotions affect our own, which then ripple into our lives. Just as our emotions can ripple into others lives and affect there actions, but only if they let them, thats key. There were some other aspects of the trip involved, my favorite part was the sensation that i could do literally anything with my mind. I had complete manipulation of my surroundings, and the only thing holding me back is ultimately, mental blocks that ive created as impossibilities. After the trip the sensation fades but the thought remains. Im convinced the powers of the mind are endless if we allow it, but sometimes the barriers we hold onto are too strong