Quantumkitty, we have so many things that resemble our way of thought it is really shocking......and pleasing
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I have gone through similar things that have lead me up to where Im at now, not all good, not all bad, but really life changing type of things, too many and too INTENSE to really explain here..... buuuut yeaaaah.
I do think that to the smallest detail, they were meant to happen and put me in the path im at now.
Now Im living of doing what I love and dont have to worry much about money (at the moment).
If it was any other way I dont think I could be able to experience this new found connectedness to the universal energy that is pure consciousness.
I feel I have started to become a better person in every aspect, my actions , thoughts and way of dealing with people are really really different than before.......... its hard putting into words but.... it was something that was in me all along , just buried deep down.... now its more constant.....idk Im just throwing it out there....my 2 cents
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This substance has definitely different effects on people. I guess it is not only the taking of the substance but everything the person has experienced in the past, the way it has lead up to it, intentions, actual moment etc that makes the difference on how it affects you.
Like QK says, it is when it has to come to you, that it will, and then you WILL change.
Birth and dying is definitely imprinted in dmt and I think it is that way for a reason.
Like intezam said:
........The essence of various religionism practices are typically focusing on: being on the (bodhi) path at the moment of death (i.e. all moments) and not being caught unawares......think about it..........
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..........Please remain open and cheerful: Many great people incl. prophets, buddhas as well as most other rishis had a vision of hell....it's just the hyperspace way of saying: Get good set and setting throughout your entire lifes.
I have had lot of fear of "death" and since my first experiences with changa it became more pronounced...
now I see it as a step forward into WHAT IS.
Maybe we are already in a sort of Bardo, maybe we will wake up to the "real" existence. Who knows.
QuantumKitty, I FEEL we need to talk more...soon.
Everything is Transitory.... Nothing is Permanent.....
Time is an illusion created for our mind/ego to navigate this reality....