I expect an opportunity to experience Ayahuasca is coming up very soon. With this said i have decided to write a letter for myself as a sort of ritual. I'm posting this initially to get feedback on how people think that i am communicating with Ayahuasca and to gain outside perspectives into what i hope to accomplish. However i have decided to also use this as a way to document an intentional part of the preconditioned Set i will be working up to with this experience i am embarking on. I have asked questions in the chat and have found a deal of helpful information. Several people feel that my heart is in the right place and i am grateful for that type of reassurance. I have no idea how to begin to expect what will happen.
I hope that in writing this i will establish a positive Set to manifest from through my Setting. I will probably drink one dose at a time; i should have around three doses according to the insight i gained through the chat. I plan on drinking one dose at a time in order to make integration easier. this is my first time consuming Aya. I will be drinking it in the comfort of my home initially and then proceed to sitting outside at night to be surrounded with nature.
It might be a while before i update this because i'm taking my time to plan the right day to brew and the right day to drink. i will be working with extra finely shredded Acacia Confusa Rootbark and Pagnam harmala seeds. i may also smoke a tiny amount of cannabis during my drinking session in order to increase the amount of time i can hold in the brew. that's if i have cannabis on hand by then.
anyways; i'm hoping not to overthink everything too much. well here's the letter. i might write more after the initial experience.
"In my life i have searched for something deep within myself. I have searched for meaning through faith in religion, science and academics, bonds of friendship, and introspection.
I am never sure of anything even though i realize there is something hiding in plain sight that reveals itself in moments like this. And i know this is a beginning.
I don't think I ask for more than I deserve anymore. And I seek introspection, curiosity, exploration, love, peace, health, connection, communication, creativity, beauty, passion, courage, humility, humbleness, integration, learning, memory, direction, motivation, and a way.
I seek guidance on my path. I council Hyperspace and ask to encounter entities who have something to pass on and i hope to use these experiences to benfit all life.
Please teach me."
I have the plan to ritually read this letter at various phases of different Ayahuasca experiences. both before brewing, during brewing, after brewing, before the experience, and after the experience. at the same time i'm not sure how important this but i plan on using it as a ritual.
wish me luck and if anyone has any advice or something to share about their experiences with Ayahuasca i'd love to hear your inisght.
Thank you all for being a community and for accepting me. I love you guys. Many of you are in my heart and i'm glad to have such companions. Thank you.