By that I mean that X was not possesed, he's unfortunately latent schizo, and if LSD(!!!) led him to such batshit insane stuff, then what could possibly happen to you while taking some shrooms? He's not self-aware.

2 things:
I think it's inappropriate to make a diagnosis of latent schizophrenia from just this story, and in general we should avoid armchair psychiatry. There are lot of possibilities as to what caused X to behave the way he did, including simple bad luck. Sometimes bad things happen to good people, and by saying "oh he was actually psycho," we sort of minimize the risk that such a thing might happen to us (even though it very well might). Maybe he did have latent schizophrenia, but given that the best medical science in the world still has no idea what causes schizoptypal disorders, I think it's an ambitious diagnosis to give based on one internet report.

I've seen otherwise stable, healthy people, do some pretty messed up things under the influence of RCs.

Also, on The Nexus, as a rule, we try to avoid expletives, to help ensure respectful dialogue and keep everyone comfortable.

Blessings
~ND

Well, the thing with DMT is that i use it purely for spiritualism practices. Almost liKe guided meditation. I dont really take crazy intense doses you know?
And well, x could have served 15 - life. I dropped the charges, because I didnt want to ruin his life over something that neither of us could explain. And hes a good guy like. He really was. I will never be able to understand what happened exactly that night, but whatever it was, it was clear that he had little to no control. He felt really bad the next day. told the officers straight up what he had done

He broke my cheek bone, suffered from an orbital fracture. almost lost my eye. And bruised bones all over my body
luckily no surgery was needed.

Such a serious trauma can't and shouldn't be dealt with on here (imho). So my advice would be to seek someone who is able to help you in a professional manner. Really...that's my advice: Go and see someone who is able to professionally help people with psychic trauma because he studied it and it's his job. I know this is a hard step to take, but after the first talk you WILL see how helpful this will be to you.

I believed your account of what happened, what you believed to happen.

But, I find one element that is total BS, it all falls apart. OH means Ohio, right? IF x 'told the officers straight up what he had done" you cannot drop battery charges. The only one that can do that is the DA's office.

I didn't comment because I really don't know what to say. One thing that bothered me is that you said that X looked threatening and you put your fists up to defend yourself... that you realize looks threatening too, so I'm not sure what X did that you perceived as threatening, but he might have got the wrong idea seeing you put your fists up.

Pathosinvalid, I have read your first post.

I wrote a few ideas in form of questions, but these questions are mostly rethorical. Try to answer to this questions to yourself. Maybe it will help you to remember your thoughts and find the causes and the truth of what happened.

Few years ago, I had several psychedelic experiences (LSD, 2c chemicals etc.) when I tripped with the other people. These people were against me spiritually. They wanted me to kill my soul. I got terrible traumas from these experiences. I was thinking about these experiences almost every day for years.

I'm still not completely free from these memories, as I still have to do some things, but after I do them I'll be free.

There is a way out of mind hell, but you will need to go through purgatory. You will need to change your life and your spiritual condition. There is no other way. Taking more chemicals or drugs of any kind won't help you.



I would say it's not because of tripping, but because of something in your mind and everyday life.



Why did you decide that? What is the cause that you like DBZ in general?



Why things got dark? What happened?



Which thoughts did you have?



How do you know it was that time?



It seems to me like it was the time when something happened, something spiritual in your minds.



Why did you go to the restroom? And why and when did you go back?



Does last night refer to the tripping night, or the night before? If it refers to the night before, what were you doing then?



It was the devil. He was communicating with you through your mind and through X.



Why did he apologize? Why did you apologize and decide to stay down there?



I think that this were the symbols representing your thoughts while your were still watching DBZ, before (you thought) trip stopped.



I think your thoughts were going into the circle, but each time when you would come to the point of leaving your (spiritual) egoism you would refuse to do that and then you would be tortured.



Why did you hug him? He wanted to kill you and you were allowing him to do that, instead of leaving his house.

It seems like, although he was very agressive to you even before he started to beat you, you would always act like everything is ok. He was controlling you mentally i think. Why? What were your relations in everyday life? How did you meet him? How long he was your friend? Think about that. Were you afraid of him before?



How do you know that was the actual test? Maybe it was something else.



Are you sure it was out of courtesy?



I don't understand who took you to the ambulance? Was it X who called them?



Don't you see? You were listening to the devil. The devil always lies, always. Don't trust to any of the entities you meet, hear or see. These are devils, even if they pretend to be someone else (angels, fairies, elvs etc.). They want your soul and life energy.

You didn't need to do any of these things. In my opinion, you only needed to leave the house of X. Hadn't you gotten that idea, to leave his place? If yes, why hadn't you done it?



I know what helped me. But I cannot tell you to do the same (you probably wouldn't), because it is of spiritual matter.

But, I can tell you this: listen to your heart, change your life, find the purpose of your life and think about what happenes after death, think about causes. All the answers are in your heart, and the love. Love is the key. But not any kind of love. Love for the Truth. That will free you. Listen to your heart, don't kill your soul by wrong living.

Is there anyone you trust you could have a quiet low dose MDMA session with and just talk about what happened?