Oct 8th
I first find it on a track, near a shrine, where so many plants had ID plates on them. I find just two plants. One big one and one small one very close together, but no others in the area! This is frustrating. But I have found them! They are so beautiful, they make you stop and think about them. Indeed, their common name is Showy Desmodium
https://www.google.com/s...;q=phyllodium+pulchellumWalking in the national park for a couple of hours, I don’t see anymore plants. Riding my scooter some kilometers furthers, I eventually I stop on the side of the road, walk down a track and then I see many. They grow in the grass among the small trees in a quite open area. I am so happy to find them in quantity! I have reached my objective.
When I first chewed the leaves, I felt flashes in my heart and the side of my neck. The leaves didn’t taste of much. I wondered how they could be so strong and do what they do with so little alkaloidal taste. I do not collect any at this point, as it is getting late and I am not feeling it is the right thing to do.
Oct 11
So I had two days break, I have been sick, struggling with the aftershocks of severe cluster headaches and I also got sunburnt on the first scooter trip. So on the 3rd day I go out to collect them. I find myself lagging, starting a bit late in the day, like so often when it comes to something important. This time I go straight to the place where I found them all growing after a two hour scooter ride. I sit with the plants first. They do not say much to me, but I know they will speak to me later when I take them.
I tell it I must harvest some plants, so I pull up 3 plants, they come straight up, roots and all. Then go to another place a few hundred meters along the road and pull up another 2. I put them in my backpack and then ride off, rain begins to come and I must shelter in a little scout shed for over an hour while the rain buckets down.
Oct 12 2017
The next day in the morning I calculate it is probably 0.2% 5-MeO at most. So 200 grams fresh is 100 grams dry. Which means 200 grams fresh + 200 millgrams. I decide to go low, and cook up 80 grams fresh, which means 50mg or so of 5-MeO.
The cooker at my little apartment is some sort of stir fry hotplate, and it heats up quite rapidly and I cannot just turn it down low. I give it one cook for about an hour.
I started drinking at 2.05pm and stop around 2.15pm
The taste is quite greenish, it is not that easy to drink, the taste is not THAT strong, but I really know something is happening right away. I only end up drinking about half of it, as I feel like this will give me a taste.
I put on some random music on my speaker but it was a bit random, so I put on David Darling’s cello music which was perfect.I start to feel some things around 2.40pm, I can feel it coming on.
There is some intensity, a watery feeling. A certain clarity. A light that doesn’t quite fully arrive.
The taste of the green in my mouth. By around 3pm I can really feel it. There is almost a nauseous feeling. I don’t want to move so much. I can feel the clarity and edginess of the 5-MeO. Also, there is some sign of the MAOI, the balancing effect of the chemicals.
At times I go into almost automatic deep breathing, a kind of pranayama. When I experience that I know for sure this plant is Soma. I have rediscovered Soma.
I meet a being who appears to be some sort of guardian or gatekeeper. He is tendrily, and sad, I don’t attack him. I just let him dissipate, he seems sad. Then there is a gnarly being, a big muscley being with chains who comes to attack me. He is another gatekeeper. I take him down with torping. Then there is a bigger one, shaking the ground, as if he has stone feet. He is sad.
Then I experience a further attack in my head, these lobster like beings.
All this fades, they are lonely guardians it seems, nobody else knows. There is an emptiness around this experience, like I am breaking it up.
Then I feel pressure in my left shoulder, in my stomach, in my heart. I can feel it working with me. It feels similar to the New Caledonian 5-MeO plant tea, but smoother.
Around 3.30pm the effects ease off, I eat some corn chips and start to feel really hungry! Then I hear a knock on the door. It is an older American guy, clear eyed, tells me I can’t have dogs in the apartment. I apologize to him, tell him its ME making those sounds, not a dog, but he’s stuck thinking its a dog, telling me I can’t have dogs for the next few minutes - quite a surreal experience!
After he leaves, there is another lobster like being attacking me, causing me pain, I blow on it to no avail, so must leave and so torp outside on my scooter to the mall and get some thai food. I can still feel it work on me, for another couple of hours. Then around 7pm I feel a lot of clarity and a shift in me.
Overall, there is less pleasure in it than I thought, and it seems quite intimidating. I was surprised how my body got nauseous, I could really feel it doing a lot. What I do not know, but I can understand why they call it the nectar of immortality due to what I felt is its healing capability.
October 17th
I move to another part of Thailand to look for more patches of this plant, and book a little hut in the country to take it again, and cook up a different batch to try it again. This time the batch I collected from the same first collection is dry. I aim to drink 80g dried, but only end up taking 40g dried. It just tastes so strong! Not so much happens, just the liquidy feeling and some sense of healing, but nothing so strong. I suppose it is good I am being cautious, I feel like this plant is very strong and there is a reason I have waited a week to drink it again, even with last weeks experience I am finding it somewhat intimidating by the power I feel in it.
24th October
I rented a motorcycle for one day in a new part of Thailand to see if I could find Phyllodium Pullchellum. I ended up just following my nose rather than a map, and ended up at a waterfall. Then as I walked up a steep track I find one plant. Aha! It is here!
Then I scooter down the road a bit, into a little dirt track. Stop, then think, no, this is not where it grows! And I decide not to get off the scooter and back out, and when I look a little closer I can see it is growing everywhere around me! Under the bamboo grove, which in the GPS notes, it states that it does grow in these conditions. I taste the leaves, they are stronger than the other one’s, which likely means more juicy 5-MeO alkaloids.
I walk around and see a few dozen plants growing in the open undergrowth, then drive off, it is raining, so end up under a tin shed where there are two big blue plastic water tanks and wait some time for the rain to ease off.
26th October
I go back to the same area to collect the PP’s. I use my intuition and go around to which one’s are calling, take one from each area. They don’t tend to grow in the shade. There are also little rusty spots on the leaves. It is hard to pull them out, the root system is so big, I am unable to pull out as many roots as I would like! But I collect 5 plants and put them under the seat of my scooter.
That night I start cooking them, all of them together weigh 500g and just fits in the big aluminium pot I have in this house with a little kitchen. I simmer slowly for a couple of hours, it turns into a deep brown golden colour. Then I simmer it down to what I think is about a liter, cover it and let it sit.
27th of October
I have problems getting up, end up getting up at 10am! Sleeping in. Thailand makes me feel lazy.
I bottle up the liquid and it is exactly one liter. I put it into 2 500ml glass bottles, then pour out what I assume is 100ml (50g fresh) and put it in a glass. Again, I feel like I am being conservative with the dose. I see no reason to rush into a deep experience with this plant and just feel like I’m making friends with it.
I procrastinate drinking it a fair while. Eventually I drink at 12.15pm. It tastes strong and I drink it all down in one go!
I put on this music mix and lie down.
https://soundcloud.com/s...ft-current-hazel-mandalaI can feel it quite quickly it working on me. The first thing I feel is it working on my liver, clearing heat, which is what PP is used for in Chinese medicine. It feels really effective, going in there to the sides in quite a lot of details, more than I felt with ayahuasca for example. Opening up channels.
Then the nausea comes, it is quite strong. I end up throwing up twice, keep heaving bringing it up. And there is also diarrhea which is quite strong too.
About an hour and 20 minutes after taking it, I am going through a tunnel, which is hard to interpret. Lots of images whirring past me. I am a bit in shock. Something in me is not able to register it is becoming SO visual.
The visuals last about 90-120 minutes. But I cannot keep track of time as I am too IN IT and surprised.
I am seeing things like asians go in and out of shops. There is a landscape, of beings, people doing their thing. It seems kind of normal. The visuals are quite crisp, especially for the dose I have taken. The colors are quite bright.
At one point there is an old wizard communicating with me, there are spells emanating from him, good spells. At no point does the communication seem very direct. Like I said, it was hard to interpret, just from the shock of it happening, and the nature of it seems so new, I cannot compute it or bring it back to memory so well.
When it ends, I go back through the tunnel, with these arms waving at me, like asian sculptures, dancing men or women or god’s or goddesses, endless arms waving, as art.
Then I don’t want to move for a couple of hours until 5.30pm.
I am in a deep place, in a reverie, the plants communicate to me with these cartoons, of the kind I experience with Iboga. They seem somehow trivial, but I understand it is only the plant trying to be entertaining. I get a great sense of friendliness and humility from this plant, wise old power, the same impression I get from Iboga.
Overall this experience felt very solid. High energy. Happiness. Brightness. For sure, this seemed like DMT more than 5-MeO. At least for this strain, it means that the DMT content is a lot higher than you would expect in the strains I collected.