Hello!

You are most welcome here, don't worry. i have something to share with you! I could write on it for a while too but i will wait to see what your thoughts are.
Anthropologist Mircea Eliade's pivotal book
Shamanism: Archaic Techniques of Ecstasy describes how in many tribes, the same mental-emotional experiences that you are describing, the shamans reported in their own words these types of emotions.
There is a very beautiful and extensive amount of information that links shamanism and autism! It seems like in many natural tribes, people who grow up and have certain behaviors and moods are understood to fit into the roles of shamans.
In our present societies or however to describe them, the cultural space does not exist as openly that allows people
a) who experience connections to the role of shamans
b) who experience
autism and related different consciousnesses
c) people who experience both
to be understood fully and therefore allowing a fully enriched and integrated human culture to exist...!
Yet thankfully many people from many perspectives are trying to help bring this closer and closer to being.
After all, whether people with autism experiences for example would all want to be shamans, as they may not, shamans and entheogens regardless could help many people with autism...!
There is a very distinctly interconnected set of realities in this.
Whether it is the ability of MDMA to help trauma, psilocybin to help the depth of consciousness, ganga/cannabis to help epilepsy, cancer, autism, and DMT to help with many aspects of life; all of these explorations are allowing an understanding to be reached and what honestly is a type of cultural enlightenment to become more possible.
We are all part of a very dynamically real and radically communicative picture of life.
You will be accepted here! I understand your perspectives and i am sure others do too!