I haven't really put anything on the forum that says I have really experienced something powerful,
but this time I have.
I appreciate all on the nexus and always look forward to talking to new people.
I am always willing to listen and share new ideas with one another.
But my most recent experience was the best, most enlightening experience yet, here goes.
Trip included:
2.9g of dried cubenesis shrooms.
1.5g of marijuana (the good kind)
Prep:
Made tea out of shrooms, did not smoke on the come up.
As I started to sip away at the wonderfully brewed tea I had just made I start going about my off work daily routine, cleaning organizing and getting
the house back up to par that was messed up throughout the week of work. 4th of July was the day and I took the brew at about 6pm in the afternoon.
As the hallucinations started to set in they came rolling on, and I mean hard, so I went to my living room and put some sentar remixes of new songs on, like Coldplay, "in my place" etc.
When things got really intense I remembered a family friend of ours that I had known for years. He was more of a father than my real father. My real father was and still is an alcoholic.
So is my family friend. But he didn't let it I guess, you can say, ruin his life cause he wasn't an angry drunk. But within the past 8 years our family friend would hire me to do odd jobs
to help my situation with all the crap going on in the states. He really helped me but my real father did not. He never showed me support, or had faith that I would do something good or even great.
But as I fell through the tunnel of seeing both opinions on opposite sides, I realized that my real father had no strength to help himself from what he had done to his own life. Never tried to help himself.
As I looked at the other side of what I was comparing to, I realized that some people have a special gift. A gift to be a father. My family friend had the natural ability to see good in certain people.
Mainly the ones who want to do well and help others through this difficult chapter we all call life, to share the light. "We gotta break you down so we can build you back up..." Is what he once told me. I cant be more thankful for what was shown to me as I never had support from someone I have respected before.
All the things said from my family friend were golden, meaningful, and full of, something I've never seen before.. The knowing you can do better and having that genuine faith, he passed that down to me.
Im falling through time now and it seems impossible to stop, all the mistakes that my real father had made all became apparent. Clear as day. Feeling sorry for yourself had no place with me anymore. Im done!
I took all these feelings and threw them as hard as I could away from me, clearing me, making me lighten my burden on myself, making me feel, well, better, and not pressured anymore. I've had it! No more concerns,
no more worries persisted. Just me. Im fine with myself, I love who I am. I found what I've been looking for. Time to start a new chapter and leave all that stress behind. Time to be me, who I am.
Throughout the trip I would learn and listen, come to a conclusion on a matter and if It was "right" I would hear the top of my mason jar "pop" when heated. No lie, Like it was a inside joke me and the universe had with each other, problem was, I was not extracting at the time...
IDk what could of been the sound but it was unmistakable to the tone. Your getting hit hard with all the good wonderful info, then ask the question around it, and get a "pop" like the universe is saying "yes" or "that's it, you got it now!"
It. was. a. trip. to say the least.
Like I mentioned before its the fourth of July here in the states so there's fire reworks!! As the tea started to loosen up I remembered that I would take my wife up to a mountain top to watch the fireworks, O man, I jumped when I remembered I promised here!
As I was waiting for her to get home I was soo exited to start this new chapter I have found.
She came up the stairs after everything, the lesions saw, and taught to me. She didn't make it half way up the stairs before I said "Im ready for some friggin fireworks!!" She laughed because she knew what I was doing, but didn't know the full picture until I explained it to her later.
Couldn't see them from the spot we were at so we got closer. We pulled to a good spot to watch but it was crowded. I mean no parking. But it all worked out when we pulled up to a crowd of just good people. We stopped and asked if we can park and they said "Sure! Come join us!"
It was soo magical for the grand finale, I didn't even know when it was gonna happen but I pulled my wife close right before it happened, and the finale happened. Just that raw, beautiful, meant to be feeling came over me and held her tight. The fireworks went sparatic, majestically beautifully, bang bang bang!!
I just cant describe it, but pure bliss. I knew what I needed to do, I have my wife, I love myself, and I was with strangers who were all caring and cool!!
As we went home, (haha) as we went home, earlier in the week I watched the lego movie, "Awsome" movie! As we get to a light to stop and wait for the signal to change a car pulls next to ours bumping the song "Everything is Awesome!!" from the Lego movie! I started laughing because everything WAS awesome! lol
but that's my trip the rest is watching TV and going to sleep, I hope you all liked the read!
Best wishes to all!
---dls---