Hello all,
So for the past couple weeks I've been a bit hesitant to pick up the pipe. It's weird, I've felt the calling but I've also felt a slight hesitation that normally wouldn't be there. I've loaded up a dose and have had it sitting in front of me at least 6 times in the past week and I've pushed it aside each time. Well last night at about midnight I told myself, "come on get a grip son!". I picked up the pipe and vaporized about 30mg of pure spice. I was in my bedroom, a place I seldom trip in.
As soon as my lips left the pipe I immediately became aware of a nasty presence. A familiar one. I felt it's malevolence and could hear a weird repetitive "yayayayaya" sound. It was almost like a gargle. I instantly remembered this entity from a previous trip that I think I had repressed. I was being pulled down into blackness, darker than a pitch black dark room. The black seemed thick like tar or oil, or dense like dark matter. There was this big empty space at the bottom of some deep hole and I was in there with this miserable, lonely and bitter entity who was blasting imagery into my mind. Just awful stuff really. I felt a heaviness in my chest and a profound sadness in my heart.
I was really annoyed because I didn't want to be down there with this thing. This certainly wasn't part of the plan. I opened my eyes and turned on the light. I felt sad and I noticed that I way crying. Although I could no longer see the images that were being shown to me, I could feel them and the pain that was attached to them. I asked it to leave. I told it I had no interest in seeing what it had to show me. Then I looked up and asked the universe for assistance. I wouldn't call it a prayer but I did ask for help and immediately I had a feeling of love and some beautiful Angelic shapes appeared on my ceiling and the feeling of dread started to lift. I got the impression that there something about my bedroom that is off and that I needed to do something about it. When I started to think about this insight that was given to me, I realized that since living in this apartment, out of the 5 times I've done DMT in my bedroom I've only had one nice experience. The lounge is fine but the bedroom seems to attract negative entities. I already wanted to move out of this place and now I've put it higher on my list of priorities. In the meantime I'm wondering if anyone here has any advice for clearing out negative spaces and if any of you have experienced a similar issue with a particular location. I figure I had better do something to sort it out while I remain here, the thought of sleeping in a room with negative energy isn't too appealing. Any thoughts would of course be appreciated.
Peace and Love,
Mush
"Father! The sleeper has awakened!"