I was lucky enough to get some DMT from a friend.It was wrapped in foil and he said there was at least 4 good doses in it.
I had done some research and had been wanting to try it for some time .I went home and waited until that night when it
would be too late for visitors to show up.

I had a friend come over and he was thinking of trying it after I did.So I took a quarter of the stuff he gave me and put it
on some ash in a glass water pipe and put a small amount of bud on it so i would'nt burn it.I can't say for sure what the dose
was other than it was too much for me.

So going into this I know this stuff is strong but I am fearless because I have no idea how strong it really is.I wanted to have a
really good trip so I decide to get three hits if possible.I draw slow on the pipe for the first hit just to heat it a little,I hold
it in for 5 sec then let out a huge hit.It was'nt harsh or taste as bad as i thought it would so this time i really hit the pipe hard.

After the first hit the smoke i blew out turned into a tunnel and my throat and lungs were numb,the second hit reality was giving away
to open and closed eye hallucinations.I still had it together but i could tell if I wanted the third hit I had to do it right away so I
did.I knew the table was beside my chair but i could'nt see it or anything else from normal reality except my hand and the pipe.I guessed
where the table was and set the pipe down it slams and echo's loudly.Two entities are Standing in front of me and one says "welcome back"
Then I say to myself out loud "I've been here before".

My Friend is in the other room but he can see and hear me asks "who i am talking to?" so I tell him about the beings and that i'm in another
dimension.I am happy and excited telling my friend its real its more real than reality.I feel like I stumbled upon the greatest thing in the
universe.

So I am seeing all sorts of amazing things and i decide I want to know everything and these seemingly real entities seem like a good place to learn
to my amazement almost all the entities I talked to spoke perfect english and talked to me very nicely.This is where things start to get weird almost
every being I talked to when "I asked who are you?"They said "im you."I ask him "how that is possible?" He explains that everything is one and one is
everything.At this point I start telling my friend we live forever and we all are the same.He tells me to stop preaching to him.I tell him I will find god
if he exists.

So i go to one of the entities and ask if i can see god he says sure but you have to do something first I said sure.At this point i can't sit in my leather chair
anymore because i am sinking into it.So i get up and I feel disoriented then I lay on the hardwood floors i started sinking into the floor it feels awful i hate
sinking into things.So to meet god you gotta die right?Right I really was'nt expecting to die but here we are spinning and sinking into the floor with two entities
making me die over and over again.I was dumb and refused to let go so more dieing and they keep asking me "do you get it?"I had to verbally say "I died" and really mean
it for this to end.I could never really explain how scared I was, absolutely terrifying.


So now I think I am dead and I run to god and greet him and wow your real and i love you and I am Dead.So confused I ask him and anyone else I see "can You send me back?"
He said no every time he sends me back I just come back again.Now I really think im a goner and no coming back.Still terrified but god seems cool about all this and im a
bit upset because i feel i was fooled into dying.I figure since I got god here I might as well get my information about the universe I wanted so badly.

I ask him "if we are all one is the devil real?" He said "yes they are one in the same like we all are." After god says this to me he "entered me" or merged with me. When
this happened I could feel both god and the devil in me.God speaks first and I could feel his words coming out of my mouth saying "I am the best part of you". I am almost
sure I said this out loud.Then the devil said "he was the worst part of me". When god spoke i felt pure love it was great.When the devil spoke it was evil and repulsive.

After all this I keep pushing for more info what is the universe and such.I was told there was no time it didnt exist,shown a huge hive collective where everything comes from.
God told me that everything that existed, exists,and will exist just "IS" and that's why there is no time. At this point I don't know if god is still in me or with me,but he
is still "leading" me around and explaining how things work.He showed me our universe from a distance that it could fit in my visual field. To me it looked like a hubble telescope picture. Now we go to the hive it was huge and yellow bright and brilliant,floating or sitting in a bright background.

I go into the hive,I have to know how it works.I am very disappointed upon entry,I went straight into a control room white nothing fancy lots of levers and controls.It was who
was running things that disappointed me. It was me about a dozen perfect copies working away, I screamed at them "NO this isnt the end". This angers them and I was angry too.
The control room starts to fill up with more of me until all i could see is me.The hive shatters I float to the space above where the hive was. All I want is for there to be more than
me in the end.I have so much energy flowing through me it feels amazing, but i am still scared of being alone. I start to slowly rotate with infinite energies flowing through me and this voice comes from my mouth it says "I AM GOD". It was similar to dieing in that the energies would drive me mad if I didnt say it.I was so scared to be alone even as god forever
that I was blasted back to my Dead body.

I wanted to forget everything I just learned because I thought I would never return to normal or be insane.I was also worried I had broken gods machine that let him function in society in a perfect bliss of ignorance.



That was weird im not normally religious and all this god and the devil and going to different hells.

So comes the really fun part my friend has to convince me that i took a drug called DMT and im not really dead we argued and argued but i didnt beleive him I called him
the ultimate liar the devil.Finally after much convincing he got me to believe him.


Overall it was very scary for me I never thought I would die what felt like 20 times or forget i took the drug i was really convinced i was dead.
some of the more disturbing stuff got on what felt like endless loops i think that is what hell is an endless loop of something that sickens you.


The first half of the trip was great But when I died things went down hill. I said never again because it was so scary but maybe at a much lower dose some day.
I wanted an intense trip and got one be careful what you wish for.

Amazing account. Maybe subconsciously you have been busy with death, dying, afterlife stuff. I suppose all are, no matter how we deny the facts of our demise.

And...what we take into it will appear seemingly. That means I am in for some weird stuff I am sure :-)
Now you gotta integrate this. What a mind job. I wouldn't necessarily take any as proof of the existence of anything. What those lessons meant...it sounds a bit Monroe to me in a way.

I concur with them entities though. But then again, I am at heart a solipsist. To me everything is a projection of my own mind. How that connects with the DMT experience I will find out soon enough. Will I get affirmation of my personal TOE? Or will it shatter it all to bits? I hope the latter. Because to me to be stuck in any sort of determinist point of view is more scary then to have to rework the whole cosmogenesis. Conclusions are points where yous top thinking. I think you should not reach a conclusion just yet too.

I like it , I really enjoyed reading it. A bit confusing sometime but its the way you write I like

Thank you for sharing it with us.

Would you try to rewrite this part cos I really do not understand it

I know alot of my post involves god and religion,but very little of the experience actually felt religious (mostly the love part). Even the dying and coming back parts didnt feel that way.
Everything felt extremely Alien, but very familiar at the same time. I read in another thread that DMT is like a program,for me it was like DMT was the real reality and this reality we
live in is the program.I felt this way throughout the experience.

I remember when my friend was trying to reason with me that i was alive I said "yea I remember my life but it feels like a million years ago".At one point when we were arguing it seemed to be repeating
over and over(the argument) and I tried to think logically all I could come up with was that this is hell and i knew i was dead and he was going to try to convince me otherwise for eternity and that he must be the
devil lying to me.

It was the feelings, concepts and ideas that scared me more than anything that was visual.

There was alot more to my trip than what i posted, if i can make sense of it i will post more.

Another thing I would like to add is the duration of my trip was 30+ minutes and about an hour of not being sure
if i was alive or dead.It seemed alot longer to me.


Thanks for the kind words and i hope you understand my above post a little better now.Very hard to describe but to
be honest while im no writer the words practically poured out of me.

Fantastic! Love all the reports people post!!
This DMT is the ultimate power. No wonder why the government doesn't want us to have it!
Just such a strange thing it is. It seems to surprise everyone! And scare everyone!
It must be hard to give in and just go with it. Just observe and not take it to heart.

30mins of the trip and 1 hour or so to recover! That's pretty harsh. I am sure you will get "it" much better throughout your experiences.
Just a learning curve.

Edit: so DMT reality is telling us this reality is not real. While this reality is telling us DMT reality is not real. Crazy stuff!