...as you may already know.
Where to even begin. The world around us rarely presents itself as one cohesive thing. I have yet to explore many societies outside of my own in the US, but from my experiences, it's cluttered with the demands and pressures of "what we NEED and should worry about next to make us happy" types of messages that never seem to mesh with what truly does make us happy.
Never have I felt what I felt that night.
The lighter had become a part of my finger tips. The water pipe an extension of my mouth and lungs. And the people and sounds around me spiraled into this true state of being โ one that felt as though my experiences, the sensations I were feeling were all a direct result of the surrounding and internal energy. No chaos. Everything seemed to fall gracefully into it's place.
I was being removed from my body. I was leaving behind my ego that had so long been controlling this body I reside in.
The breath I was taking was unending. But time had no place here. It was only
now. What happened. What was going to happen. Nothing of the sort could be thought of. My mind was being drawn from what I knew and thought I understood, but it all felt right.
Without a moment to think to myself "I think I feel something," I become immersed in this magnificent world (for lack of a better word), solely comprised of intense lines of lit up patterns and humming that were like nothing I could have imagined.
I looked all around me at this complex patterns. Just to give perspective as to what it looked like, it wasn't 3D or 4D, I would say it was like 8D or something with how intricate, vast and just the overall totality of what these lines of light appeared to be.
Lots of yellow. And some blue. (Not sure if these colors mean anything.) And just the brightest light you can imagine. But this light did not feel as though it was bright (because from what I understood, bright lights, like the sun for example, hurt when you stare into them). This light didn't. I had no eyes to feel any pain. I only felt the sheer beauty and love and energy of what they were made of โ like a billion of the greatest sunrises and sunsets, all at once
I felt at peace. I felt true. I felt free.
I began to return to my body. The sounds of the room my body was in began to fade in. I was leaving this beautiful realm that I now feel was just the waiting room for this spiritual journey.
It takes my mind a few seconds to catch up and re-up itself with my body. I notice my buddy in front of me with his camera, ready to record what I had to say so that I wouldn't forget it all. But what came out was...
Laughter. Laughter at how incredibly emotional and beautiful where I was, was. I couldn't believe what I had just experienced. I had never been surrounded by so much beauty. My soul will never stop buzzing from the high it felt that day. Such beauty. Such love. I can't even describe it. I truly can't. I wish I could for all of you today.
The best way to describe it. Happiness. Pure, unadulterated, ubiquitous happiness. That kind that many philosophers tend to describe at the root of our existence.
This feeling of happiness we're able to feel. What can be truer than that? All other emotions exist so we can reintroduce ourselves to what happiness feels like over and over again. That is what I like to believe we are here for. To experience happiness that in turn brings happiness to those around us, raising the vibrational levels of our world to that where all feels right again.
Often people forget to be happy. They pick fights. They try to prove themselves. They try to frighten you. They worship false idols that give the illusion of joy. We forget to experience this gift we've been given, and we continue to seek more when we don't need more.
I don't think it's a selfish thing to be happy. As long as your happiness isn't a result of someone else's pain, it is pure, and necessary for our lives here on Earth.
Find what makes you happy. And do it. And spread all the love and happiness that you can along the way.
Peace, brothers and sisters. And thank you for welcoming me into your community.