deeplake wrote:
What happened next I could never explain in words. For one, I did'nt even realize I did a drug....
Either way, NEVER again without a babysitter!
This happens to me with salvia considerably more than with DMT. With salvia within seconds, I have no idea what's going on, how I got here, why existence is like this, or anything. Even if I realized that I took a drug, I'll have a hard to impossible time figuring out which drug it was, and even if I somehow manage to figure out that I took a drug called salvia, I've been like, "salvia...what's that do?" With DMT, I usually remember that I've taken DMT and can make the clear connection as to why these magnificent things are taking place. "Worse case scenario" in this kind of department of thinking with DMT that I've personally experienced is that I get so caught up in everything, that I've mildly forgotten that I took DMT, but it's not really like I was questioning what was happening around me anyway. Should I have to ask myself the question, "why is this happening?", it's always pretty obvious I must have smoked some DMT.
With DMT, I personally don't need a sitter (though I've been journeying with my brother lately) because I've A) never had a traumatic or harrowing experience (even the bad and "scary" ones usually end well if I'm patient enough to wait out the storm) and B) because with DMT, you're very unlikely to get up and start moving around in a breakthrough. The opposite for many, including myself seems to be true with salvia. The experiences have been downright terrifying and people (including myself apparently) are likely to get up and start moving around, even if they're completely unaware of it. "Sally D Zombie Syndrome" I call it. I think a big reason for this discrepancy between out of body experiences on DMT and salvia stems from the kinds of tactile sensations that one has during the out of body experiences on the two different entheogens. On DMT, I find out of body experiences to be rather uplifting with vibratory sensations, or simply the feeling of freedom or gentle detection of all the patterns around you as being a part of you. With salvia on the other hand, part of what creates so much confusion is the distortions of tactile sensation such that anything that comes in touch with my body, including my clothes, the couch, the floor, myself, whatever often gets melded together or melted into. These sensations are so odd, bizarre and discombobulating with sometimes full mergers into whatever it is you're seeing or touching such that you're completely unaware that your body is up and about because all of the sensory input gets blended together so you're trying your best to navigate the new reality you find yourself in, or just having trouble "holding it altogether" such that your body can be off and about moving about, touching new things and further ensuing in confusion.
In one case, I was at my friend's house and I was sitting on a recliner in the living room where I took my hits. I was in the full throws of salvia visions, and when I came to, I was sprawled out on the coffee table having knocked all our stuff off the table (we put all the contents of our pockets on the table specifically to avoid them creating odd tactile sensations during the experience). Apparently before I landed on the coffee table, I was attempting to climb the bookcase according to my two friends. While I had no recollection of trying to climb a bookcase, what had been going on in my vision was that I kept on falling through the floor. So I would fall through the floor into one scene and then hit the floor and fall through it to the next and so on and so forth, so this must have been when I was clawing at the shelves on the bookcase. All of my salvia experiences have been with extremely potent extracts, but I just got myself my own Salvia Divinorum plant that I will be fostering a relationship with, so we'll see how my future salvia experiences go. Point of the story is, a sitter is definitely a must with salvia (especially at high doses or with potent extracts).
"Science without religion is lame. Religion without science is blind" - Albert Einstein
"The Mighty One appears, the horizon shines. Atum appears on the smell of his censing, the Sunshine- god has risen in the sky, the Mansion of the pyramidion is in joy and all its inmates are assembled, a voice calls out within the shrine, shouting reverberates around the Netherworld." - Egyptian Book of the Dead
"Man fears time, but time fears the Pyramids" - 9th century Arab proverb