So my friend gave me the opportunity to try DMT. I had nearly gotten killed by a truck that had lost control and spun into my lane. I swerved out of the way and missed it. I didnt feel ready to try DMT that night. THe next morning while I was at work I realised that I wasnt at all scared about death. I decided to call up my buddy and try DMT.
He had a room with spiral patterns drawn onto the walls. We used glass pipe with a screen and a glass match to light it. The DMT itself was extremely high grade, dry, powdery and a light yellow in color. We set up some music and I took a small starting hit to get the feel for it. I saw how energy flowed throughout the room and in me. There were 2 dogs laying beside me and when I petted them I could feel energy running from the center of my body into the dogs. And they got incredibly upset when I stopped petting them. I felt fear try to take a grip of me but then I realised that it had no substance and it suddenly vanished. This was about when I started to come back to the real world. I walked out of the room and let my friend just how amazing it was.
Now it was showtime. He and another friend came into the room and he packed a heavy hit for each of us. I held mine in for 15-20 seconds and exhaled. I had hemi-sync music developed by the monroe institute playing on the speakers. I layed back felt my conciouscness roll out of this reality. I tried to use my normal concepts of thinking but hey were far to inadequate to explain what I was seeing. Everything had suddenly become a flurry of shapes and things in and out and I felt new directional dimensions splitting open. I opened my eyes and saw how everything in the room was oriented into an extremely complex and indecipheriable pattern. Not just the objects but the very atoms and energy within the atoms. None of this frightened me at all. Infact It all seemed all to familiar. I stared at one of the spiral drawings on the wall and saw how entire worlds before me. Staring into the center made me feel more connected with my inner self.
Then I sudddenly realized that none of this was strange at all. It was all already there, these infinite worlds and dimensions I saw in just a blip of time were already there. We cooled down for about 20 mintues and all discussed what we saw. THen it was time for another small hit as taper down into the 3rd dimensions. This small hit made everything spiral again I looked into the ceiling and felt myself go into infinite bliss. It was just a short moment in this time but timeless when I was in it. As spiraled back down into reality I looked at the radio and thought of how ironic it was, I was simply tuning back into this reality.
I felt as if fear was not able to consume my thoughts anymore. The conscious concept of fear didnt make sense. I left my friends house shortly after and drove over to my sister's. I told her about the trip. She and her fiance both immediately freaked out saying I was doing something incredibly dangerous. Her fiance insisted it would be cheaper and safer to chug a bottle of cough syrup (not realising that I had payed nothing for the DMT). Then they went on to arguing about unimportant 3rd worldly things. I did not feel annoyed but rather as if I were observing this aspect of reality and that the percieved stresses did not actually matter. The concept of viewing things from a fear based mentality was a waster of time to me now.
I do not fear this reality anymore. There are physical limits but there also many, many, many great experiences to be had right here. You will not lose them or forget them in the long run, but rather they will add to who you are. And if I am to lose my life or spiral out in some other way, I do not fear it, I look forward to what lies beyond. Because the infinite truly does exist.