Good morning! today i woke up thinking about my dmt breakthrough a few months ago.. for some reason i will get lost in deep thought about my experience. in may i smoked dmt for the fist time on my birthday, my friend loaded up a bowl for me (which my other friend said was a very large amount for my first try) but my friend knew i would be fine and lit it up for me. First i feel my body being lifted away almost, i felt tingly. i didnt know what to expect AT ALL, i had known people ripping off their clothes and jumping in lakes but i didnt think that was from dmt alone.. i was in a white world, in my mind trying to figure out where i was, i was lost for a minute then when it came to be i felt a tear from reality and i was traveling through different worlds, so colorful, so many new shapes and things that dont even exist, all in my head!! its was amazing, i broke my barrier and i didnt even try.. what i experienced was unexplainable but i came out of my trip saying OH OK!!! i couldnt stop thinking, oh ok! (the same thing happened the 2nd time i smoked it) when i opened my eyes everything looked so beautiful, it was shining in a unique way, my deck looked like it had oil or mercury inside of it moving around. all my freinds looked beautiful, perfect.
during the end of my trip i guess i was trying to reach into the chair i was sitting in but i felt like i was inside of it! my hair and scalp felt like the most amazing beautiful thing i had every touched. my friends started to worry, i heard them asking me if i was ok, it made me come back. they said i was screaming for about 2 minutes, i had no idea. they said it sounded like no scream they had ever heard, a relif scream, like i was detoxing my whole body through my screem, i was breaking through, understanding the inner me and how everything in this world is one. they said i had jumped up at one point and that i looked like zena the warrior princess doing some crazy shit. when i came out i was in disbelif about what just happened, i couldn't stop thinking about it! i felt like almost a new person, so refreshed, i had a new understanding of the world, my life. i gained even stronger compassion for everything on this planet and i really felt connected to the whole universe. i really want to know if anyone else had this experience.. if so how did it affect you? what is breaking through really? i have so many questions about my experience and just dmt in general..
i wish i could describe my trip itself more in depth but to me it is indescribable.