I'm pretty new here/ with DMT. But I had an experience beyond experiences last night! I love reading others trip reports. I'm not a good writer, and kinda lazy at heart but I'll give it a try.

First off, for me anyway. I learned to have everything ready meaning my dose already melted on the glass, torch, ect. all very accesible. I noticed the anxiety of a planned trip takes something away from it for me. This is a subject I would like some imput/opinions on. I can go way further on the same dose that way.

First journey: just woke up from a weird dream where something was holding me down and I broke free with a struggle... Felt very relaxed, that "you'll shoot your eye out" movie was on TV, it was cloudy out, the house was real quiet.. Reached over grabbed my pipe, and launched. DMT visuals are just absoulutely undescribeable (at larger doses). So I won't even try.

Anyway, the point of that trip was when I glanced at the ceiling fan. I became fixiated on it! It turned into this like fabulous other universe I was absolutely fasinated by it, and could'nt look away until it wore off. Then, even being the macho guy I am, cried. But they were tears of joy. I was soo appreciative of life and what I got.

Second (real) trip: It was midnight, I was just falling asleep. This time no TV, unplugged the alarm clock ect. Just slighly opened one blind for the soft glow of the streetlight. Put on my night light just so I could smoke. I forced myself to take that extra hit, burned the @#!@ outta my finger trying to put down the testtube pipe (got a big nasty blister today) managed to flick off the light and lay back in bed b4 I really launched.....

I went into another world! I can't remember details, but was in such an absolutely pure, beatiful, euphoric bliss I thought I was in heaven.?. Nothing mattered anymore. For example I do slightly remember the pain from my burn being present, but the concept of pain did'nt matter in that world. Earthly things just did'nt exist anymore. I did not want to leave that world! Wish I could be their permanently. Although when I did come back I was'nt disappointed. Actually quite the contrary. I was more humble and appreciative than I've ever been!

Is it odd that I prefer to be alone on heavy trips? Even back in the day for a brief period swim was able to obtain LSD-25, which was a whole differen't ballgame than most of that paper ect. I'd get from deadshows or on the streets. Sure I'd trip and have fun with my buds on lower doses, but on heavy ones even if I started out with people I'd usually want to be alone when I started peaking...

Looking forward to some feedback

I also journey alone most of the time, and also plan it,or at least set aside a decent amount of time to prepare once I feel the call. It just feels too private / personal to do as some sort of 'party' thing, plus it is easier to go deeper on smaller doses IME - there are only a couple of people that I like to journey with... I'm glad you got to experience the 'heavenly' side to this stuff, most of my recent trips have been of a divine and loving nature and it has affected me deeply - a real privilege, and something that is slowly changing my outlook on life in a very positive way. There really is nothing like it!

Does it just keep getting better every time you do it?

Very much depends on what you call better! For me at least it is a dice roller, I have no idea what the next journey holds for me. I may be refused entry, I may be rocketed to another reality. I may feel pure bliss or pure hell, who knows!

Nice trips, thanks for sharing man. That "absolutely pure, beatiful, euphoric bliss I thought I was in heaven" place is wonderful isn't it. I'm not sure if mine is the same as yours, but I've been there on mushrooms a few times and for me it simply is Heaven, and the distinction between a biblical heaven, or the dwelling place of God, or a true paradise, or just a psychedelic experience of incredible, unearthly beauty and power, it's all one and the same.

I'm also like you in preferring solitude in my journeys. It began out of necessity because I had no one who shared my interests but now it's more of a facet of shedding the material world. Having others around kind of anchors me to the earth.

Also what d*l*b wrote about rolling the dice, psychedelics are very much like that for me. Sometimes I just go straight up through the pearly gates, and sometimes a horrible demon made of hate with tentacles of my own sins drags me into the depths of Hell. Also sometimes I have to wrestle the Toad King's rag tag band of Dwarven roughnecks before I can watch the sunrise over the Garden of Eden. It's always different, but perseverance and courage shine through the rough patches. Happy journeys!

I don't think there is anything wrong with tripping alone. I'm not sure what kind of friends you have but if they're anything like mine they just don't completely understand your intentions with the journey.
After a trip I like to relax and meditate so as to reflect back on the trip. This often helps to prolong one as well!
If you have friends around you tho you will be distracted and try to explain where you went.(Which we all know you can't)

Don't get me wrong tho. Having friends around you can be a blast.
I guess it just depends on your emotions at the time.

You guys speak it well. I don't even know what to say anymore. I'm just a whole differe'nt person than I was 2 weeks ago. Deffinately an ego buster and a positive guide. I've probably traveled 8 times now and only been allowed access that 1 time, still pondering that one!

They wanted to communicate with me really bad last night, but I was scared and would'nt go. Don't feel it since, I'm kinda worried I like pissed them off or something by refusing?? I wonder if their will be consequenses?

i agree,,i perfer alone in silence it is a role of the dice... it gave me ego death one time. that just ripped me to shreads... took everything i ever was or hoped to be.. even my last heart beat.. but made me better... as someone said to me... remember your honeymoon..lol....the fear is normal.. for some it never stops but no real reason to fear it.but you have to respect it! . no one really dies.. it is the light... nice share .. thanks

This is the thing about DMT that has blown me away the most. The other dimensiuons and the fractals and the uncomprehendable madness is all well and good, but its the constant reports by people claiming to have improved there lives massively through taking "DRUGS!!!". It leaves me lost for words



On my first spice session i was in a crazy, unfathomable place and at the peak of the insanity something asked me "do you want to go further", now i had never been anywhere close to this experience and i thought that if i agreed to go further then i would literally go insane. i said no.

Afterwards i wondered what would have happened if i would have said yes, where would i have gone? Anyway a couple of months later i found myself in the same place, being asked the same questian, by the same being, this time i said yes and it was mega.

Dont lose hope you may find yourself back there one day, im pretty sure THEY wont be offended.

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For me definitely, not nesesarily trip to trip, as they can be quite contrasting, but on an evolving basis it is more amazing and more enjoyable now than when i began.