After dipping my toes in the water carefully
here I decided to turn things up a notch.
Over the weekend I made some enhanced leaf,I went for 50% calea,50% blue lotus,or electric sheep as it seems to be known. I thought about making it 1:1 but opted to be cautious and went for 1:1.5 instead. I made myself comfortable with dim lighting and low music and loaded 20mg into my small glass bong,I'd read a lot of posts with people recommending a "ease in" dose and figured that would work for me,as I felt a little anxious still. I lit the leaf and took a slow hit,and lay back and enjoyed the light visuals,I was comfortable with the feeling and it felt familiar,which really calmed me. I thought it lasted a little longer than straight spice,hard to tell with a low dose though I guess.
I felt ready to increase the dose now,so I measured out 40-50mg(my milligram scale hasn't arrived yet) and loaded it. I followed advice from posts here and made sure I cleared the bowl in one go,watching the leaf burn out slowly,my vision was starting to blur as I put the bong down on the table and laid back on my sofa,pulling a blanket over me whilst still holding my breath. The ceiling was beginning to distort wildly and I exhaled,realising that this was a different level altogether. I had to close my eyes and fell in to a swirling geometric whirlwind,small squares of bright colours twisting and turning,and morphing into womanly shapes. The amazing thing was the clarity of the images,with incredible depth,quite breathtaking. These pattern formations continued and there was a real "Alice in Wonderland"feel to it. To be honest my memory of the whole trip is very hazy,but the thing which is unforgettable was the feeling of love and euphoria,and the sense that I was being shown something incredibly important.I kept geting little snippets of (this)reality,I remember my girlfriend and parents being referenced at one point,for most of the time though I has completely lost my sense of self. The sense of wonder and happiness was quite overwhelming,and the spinning geometric world I had fallen into held me rapt, this was something entirely different from anything I have experienced before. As I started to come back I could hear the ambient music I had playing and it sounded absolutely amazing,and I experienced another huge rush of euphoria.
I opened my eyes and recognised my lounge and realised I was back,I was trembling as I watched the multicoloured fractals dance on the white ceiling. I remember thinking to myself "so this is what the fuss is all about" and I had a few minutes of introspection about my life,thinking about the direction I've been heading,and my drug use in general really,that's an area where I really think DMT can be useful,I need to work on aspects of my psyche,this can be a wonderful tool I hope.
So I've learnt how amazing it can be,and the pre-flight anxiety I feel will be reduced in future I feel. I spent a few minutes breathing deeply and meditating beforehand too,and this really helped. The visual diagram in houses' signature was very useful too,a great help for us inexperienced types. Switching to enhanced leaf was a good move for me too,much easier to get the proper dose into your lungs. Although a GVG will be ordered soon,I would have ordered one last night but the axe-pack is out of stock at the moment. I'm a non-smoker so proper vaporising will be much kinder on my lungs.
I have had trouble remembering a lot of the trip though,as I was coming down I was struggling to recall the details,only that it was incredible. I had a look around the forum and it seems it's not unusual,the sensory overload is a lot to handle to begin with I suppose?
A good start for me then I feel,and I'm glad I started slow and got comfortable with spice before diving in,thanks to the great advice on this site. All the research paid off!!
Bartacus