I've had my first taste of DMT over the weekend, and it's very interesting,I've started very low though. Maybe I'll start with a little background info.
I started experimenting with drugs in the early 90's at raves and parties. I loved the times I had then,not too many psychedelics at that time,mostly Ecstasy in one form or another. After a few years I became addicted to heroin. 8 years later I managed to get clean with the help of Naltrexone implants,although the time was right for me to stop also,it felt like a switch had been flicked and I've never really looked back at it since. That was nearly 12 years ago.
After my detox I spent time doing "normal" things,concentrating on work etc. Eventually I started to go to the odd party and I ended up getting too involved,my work suffered and I lost my job I'd been in for 14 years,shortly after that I OD'd on GHB,which was a real wake up call. I started my own business at the time too,all of which coupled with a demanding relationship and subsequent breakup,resulted in depression,not severe by any means,but enough for me to seek help. I've been on a SSRI for 8 months or so,but I fully intend to stop them,there's no doubt they've helped me though. I've also met an amazing girl who has a much more spiritual approach to life than me and I'm learning from her.
So,having always been interested in DMT I began reading lot's and lot's,which resulted in me finding this great place,My FOAF decided he would attempt an extraction,so that's been underway and has gone well,I'll post a thread in the relevant section when it's finished. In the meantime I decided to try a few small crystals. I don't have an efficient means of delivery yet,I've got a version of "The Machine" I don't particularly like the idea of it though,because for me it has associations with another very destructive substance that I used to use. I'm going to make some enhanced leaf I think,I've ordered come Mullein and Pau'DArco(I know that MAOI's are off limits for now).
My milligram scale is in the post so I measured 100mg and divided into 4,I figured that would be plenty low enough with my inefficient vaporiser. I was on my sofa,alone with a glitter lamp only on,i had a bit of anxiety because my kitchen window didn't have a blind fitted(even though there isn't a direct view in) and I can get a little paranoid about things like that. I felt pretty relaxed though really. I started the lighter and began to inhale,but nothing really happened,I was going very carefully with the lighter and I didn't get close enough. I took a breath and tried again,this time I could feel the smoke when I hit the right spot. I held my breath in for as long as I could (I'm quite familiar with this process) and my vision was beginning to distort before I exhaled. I set the pipe down and laid back into the sofa and closed my eyes,and the geometric patterns began, it reminded me of a couple of LSD experiences. These continued to unfold behind my eyes,and I was enjoying it,I still felt a little anxious though and I kept opening my eyes to ground myself,I knew it was a low dose though and I felt in control though the whole time,my glitter lamp was pretty cool to study though! The patterns subsided and within 10 mins I was back down,although with a little glow inside. A day later I took another similar sized dose,I was in bed this time,and followed it with another slightly larger one,I would guess it at 30mg at the most,this was a little more intense and the visuals were faster and a bit heavier,I had a vague sense of falling and there was a feeling of another presence,although I'm not sure whether it's auto suggestion on my part from reading so many other reports. About half way through I got a little anxious and felt a little uneasy,I was able to dismiss it fairly easily though. I felt very positive after however,which has inspired me to write up the experience here.
I know it's a mild first few encounters and doesn't make too exciting reading,but if there's one thing I've taken from all the excellent advice on this site,it's to respect the potential of the molecule,and I feel that could be the first baby steps in trying to gain insight to myself,there's a part of me that is attracted to the thrill of it's power too,but to me it's not just the next high. I really do think it can be very helpful to me. I do think that enhanced leaf will be the way for me to go next though,I like the idea of the herbs interaction,and the slower "blast off" appeals to me at this stage.
I'll document the next noteworthy experience,but thanks for reading this,I've found writing it quite cathartic. It's a good place here for that type of thing here I think.Until next time.
Bartacus