I have just started to learn how to surrender. And now my journies are starting to get a lot more intresting!!!
I didnt know my mind had such a big influence on my journies!? Is that normal??
Well, today I loaded up the biggest dose of changa I have smoked until now. And after my third hit on the pipe..woooohhhow.. I got this really intense pressure in my head, and the room became kind of like waves and were spinning and vibrating very fast, and for a few seconds I coulndt recognise where I was. I coundnt even see the pipe I was holding in my hand! I manage to lay down after a little while.. Among with the waves theese really big clowns kind of, came in and out of the walls, looking at me!
I closed my eyes, and while my sight were adapting to hyperspace , it was about 3-4 humen looking beeings shaking their hands infront of my face, as if they wanted me to open my eyes(/eye?). It was a landscape kind of behind them, like a grassfield with some sort of flowers, and it was sunny, and it was like they were having a picnic there! But I only got to watch for a really short second, I started to doubth that I was really seeing this, and not just seeing my same old trips, so then I was sucked downwords into that space I always go to. It is slightly different every time though, this time it was very pink in there, and looked kind of like supermario videogame-ish, but with a lot of mooving squares and morphing strange creatures and things that I dont really understand...its no possible human understanding of those..hehe..
Then I started to try to just surrender and flow with it, and I became a part of the fast mooving room until I couldt not feel my body anymore, only my head, it was actually a quite good feeling.. Then I was dragged backwards outside of the room. Here I have gone on the end of my trips, the last two times I have smoked after I started to practise how to surrender. It looks like millions of, you know those glass squares at disco bowls, in a lot of different bright glittering colours, and they are mooving and twisting really fast. It always feels very good to be there, sence its a break from the intense morphing room.
This time I didnt stay in there, but I kept mooving upwards to the side, and it was like I was in the universe looking down at the glittering squares, and it looked like they formed a big round planet, I was still close and it was so big I couldnt see the wholde of it.. Its like the squeres are a layer outside the room that I have always gone to..and that the "room" is actually a whole planet! Suddenly I saw something really strange to the right, it was reeeealy big, and I understood it was a hallway, and I got glimpses of some sort of mooving tunnel. The way the hallway looked, I understood I have only seen a tiny tiny prosentage of all that is in hyperspace until now.. wow..it was so so strange..
And then someone said to me telepaticly, in a smiling way, that I soon will be ready for hyperspace!! ...I guess its not to long until I will have my first real breakthrough
