Hey ppl.
Last night I suddenly got the urge to start a thread. Then I realised I couldnt start my own thread because I was only a little noob
, a seedling if you will.
Quick reasons why I should be able to make my own thread:
1. I've been on the chat for some time now, frequent members know me...
and I've learned the just of what this forum is about. I try to be as respectful as possible and not to butt into other ppls conversations.
2. I've read this forum front to back, performed several teks and found many threads to be useful relating to dosages, experiences and even non-related subjects of dmt. After being at other forums of this nature, I've come to the conclusion that the nexus is ultimately where I'd like to be.
3. This is a highly refined version of similar forums, in which the culture seems to come together with similar interests at hand (which i find rare).
Here, there is not as much clutter and mix-matching between poly-drug users who want to 'down play' they're drug of choice and demonize yours (if you know what i mean). Dmt-Nexus is not as biased in my opinion.
To sum up, I love you ALL!
sprinkle some water on my seedling and watch me grow!
So now the only question that remains is..........
Why do I want to make a thread of my own?
yes, it is true. I dont have a lot to bring to the table. I am young at heart and mostly uneducated in the various topics this forum supports.
However, there is this one little thing I do called creative writing and spoken word.
I don't very much enjoy the stigmas attached to poetry so I wouldnt say I'm a poet, but nevertheless, I can certainly say I'm probably a wee bit egotistical because basically I want to be a member so I can have a thread for my own writing.
Here's why. My poetry... I mean, writing... is insanely ridiculously awesome and entertaining! And it also has entirely been derived (well actually i'd say 'mostly'
from psychedelics, so that's always kind of interesting.
And hey, if my writing sucks than you can always have a chuckle or two, and so... I mean its a win-win either way.
Below is a provided example of the good things to come upon making me a full-time gangster. I mean member.
Are you bored? Do you feel diminished? Lathargic? Sluggish? Unexcited?
Inattentive of wonders occuring around you?
Divided from passions that define you?
Spiteful of a world that invites you?
Does it feel like... the same over-rated orchaestra has been playing all your life? The same orchaestra whistling the same high keys and bellowing the same low notes...
Does the music agitate you?
Can you accurately declare... that your hopping here to there, conscientiously?
Or does it feel like maybe your being dragged along by this 'thing' called time?
Does it fluster you to have wake up each day covered in filth, only to wash yourself, so you can be drenched in that same filth again?
Only to hold your head up high, so it can be lowered...
Only to form an opinion, to be dissuaded...
Only to invente yourself, to be dismantled....
Only to eat and eat and drink and drink, just to do it all again tommorow?
Does this all seem depressing to you? Debilitating? Devitalizing? Dispiriting?
Or are you maybe just bored?
Are you tired of living life the way you are now? Of witnessing the same certainties popping up over and over... and sequentially sweeping the uncertainties under the rug?
Are you tired of dreaming the same dreams, thinking the same thoughts, feeling the same feelings, and...
walking the same narrow corridor over and over like a spinning carousel that never stops?
What about tasting that awful bitterness that never goes away?
Does repetition smirk at you everyday?
Well, it doesn't have to.
Thought-patterns can be re-written...
Ideologies adjusted.
Outlooks unfocused, knots untied...
Realities re-imagined.
Apperception is malleable.
Introspection is an art.
Awareness is Godliness.
“The quest is to be liberated from the negative, which is really our own will to nothingness. And once having said yes to the instant, the affirmation is contagious. It bursts into a chain of affirmations that knows no limit. To say yes to one instant is to say yes to all of existence.”