SWIM says...

I seem to have a little problem with my commitment of the DMT trip details to memory.

I know that this is normal but apart from the first time and the LSD+DMT combo menu selection. The trips have been very difficult to remember, not even a few images or concepts/ feeling remain. I really couldn't tell you if I had met an entity, can't remember. Apart from the peace and calmness and the fact that I know it was a pretty good feeling, I can't retain much information.

Some selected highlight or self noticing that could contribute to the issue.

I tend to still be quite nervous of using DMT. So I tend to do build up doses during the evening, I always remember the brightly coloured folding rooms. I see these a lot, with the build up doses and also not really sometimes committing to a goooood toke for fear of a bad intense trip.

I spend a lot of time at the beginning of the trip anxious about the trip. Then I am filled with, don't think of pink elephants, type paranoid thoughts about if the trip is going to be bad or not.

Then I give in a little, the body vibration and lump in the throat thinking you are not breathing have become annoying. This upsets me a little but then I finally release. But rarely breakthrough, I still find annoying thought processes interrupting the trip.

Such as, I really need to remember this, but focusing on producing the internal voice of this sentiment and not the desired action. Other thoughts I have are about self worth and annoyed that I've stayed in folding room territory. I focus on the thought that the 'stuff I've made is not pure enough', and other little things. Body position and sensations can become an annoyance.

I've tried some home made infused herbs. Passion flower, spearmint, lotus and others. I then had the same process of building up to and finding a dose. I was concerned that 2:! mix wasn't 2:! but stronger and or that change doses may need to be slightly higher that freebased. I just feel it is better to ease myself into it.

Secondly actually a 2:1 mix results in quite a large amount of plant material to smoke. This ups the fear even more as more 'apparent' DMT laden smoke, thus stronger trip, is inhaled. Breakthrough doses became a problem just holding in the smoke. A recent chest cold and cough not helping.

The herb mix was smoother but seem to lack the immersion of a freebase trip. I seem to be more of an interested observer than when on freebase. This makes me aware of myself and I start the crazy thought processes again.

I feel that all this worrying, before and during the trip distract me enough to forget any major detail.

I am putting some things into place to combat some feelings. Carrying out multiple re crystallisations to get a nice white crystal product. Which has worked quite well on the current extraction.

I am also going to mix some infused herbs but a 1:1 ratio, knowing that now I've tested the process of infused herbs and have more confidence to smoke a reasonable amount.

White crystal product will be freebased for those trips that are breakthrough aiming in nature.

Correct meditation and calmness before the trip has to be obtained. The thought processes are very intrusive.

I think I am trying too hard and carry the fear of the bad trip, not yet having one. This conspires against to make me work up to doses to feel comfortable. Even then not going for it, scared of the results. I stay around the folding rooms many times not daring to push further.

The times I do move a little further I am so obsessed with the idea of it not being a divine trip that I remain distracted.

Or is it all hogwash, and I'll remember more as the DMT journey continues?

Or can I try other methods such as a herb mix, adding in Salvia to act as an opener?

LSD+DMT was a totally different experience, the LSD had made me clear of thought and I was at peace with meeting God.

Maybe I just only do LSD and DMT......

LSDMT is a great way to explore hyperspace.

I think hyperspace is hard to remember for a lot of people at first because you literally have to grow new neurons in your central nervous system to store the completely different data received while you are in such a state. It doesn't exactly stick at first. For me it just took doing this over and over and focusing on remembering and after a while the memories became longer, more indepth, and unforgettable. It's kind of like an exercise if you look at it this way.

Try relaxing and experiencing it for what it is, leaving human words, concepts, and emotions at the door of the feeble reality in which you maneuvered to get to hyperspace. Beware, observe, collect.
Do this until you no longer have to. That's really all I can say on the matter.

I agree, you seem to be overthinking it. You need to learn to relax and go with the flow and see where it takes you.

Take your time. This isn't a contest and you have your entire life ahead of you to explore this compound.

Sounds like plain old anxiety stops you from going where you really want to go, pre-launch preparations just seem occasionaly to amplify it. The best first "breakthrough" experience I had was done around 3 in the morning, on impulse after being awakened from sleep. Can remember 75% of it crystal clear to this date. (Topic: The yellow tentacle entities and the villain in the buggy sofa ) . I'd use freebase all the time, I've pissed lots of spice up the wall trying to make "Changa" . I have the GVG pre-loaded most times, and prefer to just go for it when that "window" seems open.

Happy traveling.