35mg yellow crystal
As I smoked this amount last night and had a good trip I decided to stick with the same dose and explore a little more. I took the hit all in one – I thought that I was comfortable enough to do this. How very wrong I was. Nothing could prepare me for what I experienced. All other previous trips pale into insignificance as a matter of fact so did life and reality as I know it!

It began with the familiar kaleidoscopic visuals, bi-lateral patterns either side of my visual field and I was pulled at warp speed through them. I knew this feeling of coming up – it was pleasant , I saw geometric, paradoxical patterns, shapes and objects – they were dark brown in colour with deep reds and oranges sometimes a sandy beige. Staircases of never ending proportions, then a grand welcoming by hundreds of Buddha type figures, they felt female in nature. They approached me with warm open arms, love and hugs. I felt much loved, euphoric and at ease but more than this I felt in control. I submitted to these alien beings and said “I am ready”. I was not ready! All of a sudden I was blasted at ultra warp speed to every place in the universe, I was shown every realm of existence. My mind was separated, literally ripped from my physical body and I then lost all sense of everything I knew. It was so intense I tried my hardest to grasp onto reality. I recall some reptilian/ sphinx humanoid type creatures at one point. They were not really interacting with my consciousness just going about their business.

The enormity of it all was so overwhelming, I felt utterly stupid as nothing I saw or was shown made any sense to me. I desperately tried to hold on to my consciousness but I was failing. I was questioning everything, “what was the point?” I felt as if I was being shown the creation of universal or even multiversal existence all at once – an infinite amount of images with feeling and history was flashed into my mind, then my mind shattered into a billion pieces like an exploding star. I felt as if I was being mocked or laughed at, I felt the presence of a large group of people almost watching my confused and scared body for their entertainment. I heard the laughter and started to laugh myself – although it wasn’t funny this was more out of being scared I think. I thought my mind was lost forever, I kept having to remind myself who I was, I was alive. Waves of terror and enlightenment occurred. There was some vague memory of an encounter with snakes but I cannot really disseminate this further. I opened my eyes – my room was a totally alien environment, it was my room but juxtaposed to a completely different place. Everything was moving – I was still very much in the trip. The walls were fluid, there was waves and patterns everywhere not comforting like the visuals of coming up. I could see radiowaves and radiation, sound waves where appearing as visuals. I looked at my hands and feet, it was if I was looking at a real time MRI image. I could see my bones and watched as my skeletal system as it articulated. I thought that my mind had been lost – I felt that I was having a full blown psychotic episode. I could not ground. I closed my eyes and I was straight back into the intense events occurring within my consciousness. I was stuck in the eternal and self perpetuating cycle of psychedelic worlds. I knew my mate was in the other room – this was my only hold on reality I was aware of him, he was real therefore I was too.

What I was exposed to made no sense, and still does not. The only thing that I can bring back is that our knowledge of existence and intelligence of the world and reality is a fraction of what is out there for us to discover. I began to control my breathing, I was unsure of where I would wake up, I half thought I had died and that the feeling of my pounding heart was actually someone carrying out CPR on me in a resus room. I slowly came back to earth.

I opened my eyes, things seemed more real than before, still really trippy and there were waves of vibrations through the room and my body. I managed to get off my bed and go into the living room, my mate was sitting he looked at me and said “dude you ok?” I then went into full blown shock, collapsed on the sofa, I was tachycardic at around 190-200bpm, my BP dropped I became faint and was shivering. I raised my legs, took deep breathes. About 10 minutes later I felt back on the level. My mate told me I was gone for about 7 mins. I was in complete awe of what I experienced. There is no doubt I broke through , I was not expecting it at all. It really shook me up. I still can’t fathom out the true nature of what happened. Whether it was a mass release of neurotransmitters that formed this experience or whether it was truly some mystical and transcendental voyage through hyperspace. Although terrifying it was amazing an amazing insight to the power of the mind and what hyperspace has to offer. Our human existence is so incredibly insignificant and minute -I can’t wait to see if the next time I can control aspects of the trip and maybe be somewhat prepared for the intensity of the experience and pull out some meaning or answers for what DMT is showing me!

Hey dr_lucas,

Nice post that's go to have been hard to word. I could relate to a few things for example when your mind exploded into a gazillion pieces. For me though each part of them gazillion pieces experienced a different reality, then all parts centralized back into one place for a few moments (like a time-out), I would be reassured then back out into the different reality's and repeat. I think this coming back was because I may lose it too much so they had to bring me back at times so I had some grasp on reality. Strangely when I was in the time-out zone I kept getting this feeling like I have been hear many times and they know this is my place of choice, and a feeling that they couldn't let me stay there too long...was like a luxury.

When you said Buddha's with a female presence that kind of threw me a bit....I chuckled trying to imagine that. I definitely understand your condition after your experience it is a shock to say the least. I remember walking home from a friends at 3am looking at the sky dazed, thinking the world needs to know about this. I couldn't sleep properly for three days.

I am never really sure how to reply to these threads, I just try to relate I think thats why we come hear to tell our stories.Great to hear fellow travellers experiences, happy future adventures.

Yeah it's been a few days since this experience and hence why I joined up on here to try and find some people with common shared experiences. I would like to try changa to see if when the intesity is turned down I can try and understand a little bit more into what the hell I saw. I'm glad that you see some similarities with your own journey - it's a comfort to know there are people who know exactly what it feels like.

Hey there Sounds like a pretty deep / rough trip. I would give it a little while before delving back in, myself, in order to integrate what has happened, but you obviously know yourself better than I. These sorts of experiences need to be met with total surrender IMO, otherwise your ego will be clawing around trying to grasp hold of anything and everything to make sense of what is going on. Hyperspace is often far far beyond comprehension, although we like to try and decipher it, and even share shards of our experiences. I have met a massive female Buddha type entity 'there' as well, much like one of those big gold Thai Buddhas (gah, I'm sounding like Joe Rogan now but it's true)... had to LOL at the "I'm ready" part, for me, it's "ready as I'll ever be!" *gulp*

As for Changa. YES! But be warned, it is not necessarily any more controllable than freebase. It can even make the experience MORE powerful, although it will have a different character for sure. You can however start low, and gradually build up, so in this respect it can be more forgiving, either way, if you love spice, you will probably love Changa.

I would suggest lower doses taken in one hit - taking the whole lot in one hit and holding it for 10-20 secs will get you very deep very fast, and a small increase in dosage can make a big difference. I have had occasions though where, for some unknown reason, I have been catapulted way further than i thought I would be on the same dose as before, which sounds like it may have been the case here.

In any case, welcome aboard

Yeah telling your experience to someone who hasn't done dmt and had a breakthrough is a waste of time. They simply cant imagine, like uncle Terence said it's not just stranger than you suppose its stranger than you CAN suppose. I always get the same movie clip in my head from the Vietnam war movies "You don't know man... you weren't there" when explaining to peeps.

I think the best thing is that it always changes, the next breakthrough might be completely different using a concept of reality so far from that experience you'll be like...dmt is not what I thought it was. That is all I kept saying in my last breakthrough wow wow this it not what it thought it was over and over. Spice can blow your mind in many different ways. But yeah changa could be the way to go for slowing it down. Some of the guys on Nexus mix and match certain blends and swear by them, saying each mix encourages a different trip. But for me personally it seems the sheer amount of pure vapour you can absorb into you lungs determines the complexity and astounding magnitude of levels you may reach in any given session.

Yeah tomtomtom your so right - I tried to explain this to a non dmt smoker...a fellow medic and friend but as you say they don't get it. Very much of the "you don't know man....you wern't there".

I will take some time before my next dose to let my mind settle as it were. Pick up on the changa and build myself up to it again if that makes sense. Thanks for your input guys it's invaluble.

I agree with Purges. It's very important to 'surrender' yourself to what you experienced. Your ego will tend to cloud your mind from the truth, in this case that "I simply don't know what happened, but it was amazing." If your ego successfully clouds your mind, you could become confused, irritated, frustrated, or worse. Then you end up being the ONE bad story about DMT that ruins our perfect customer service rating, LOL.

You're fortunate to experience a breakthrough after so few attempts with strong entheogens like mushrooms, peyote and dmt. I've yet to have one, despite much practice and research in consciousness and meditation, and more than adequate amounts of powerful entheogen experiences.

Cheers!

Your time will come young Padiwan

I certainly admire your courage Dr Lucas! I must admit that on my first breakthrough I certainly did not infer that I was by any means 'ready' for what I then experienced! I think it must be your open and apparently fearless mindset that made the beings think 'I think he can handle it' and proceeded to show you everything. All the best for your future trips and as long as you continue to approach your journeys with the 'I'm ready!' mindset then the skies the limit!