Tonight was the first time I breached hyperspace. I broke through the atmosphere and tumbled for a while in a vast open space. Space itself was cut into these tiles of dimension. They moved against each other like a tapestry of stained glass facets-- but no colors, just black distance and time compressed into a shifting polygon. The sense was of vast and cold distances between me and the rest of the universe. And then, through my consciousness, a horizontal 'wipe', like a shift between scenes in a movie, and the black turned brilliant white, and the spaciousness was inside me as much as it was outside me. My breath felt clear and fresh-- I still have that feeling now.
I only stayed there a little while before I became aware of my breath, became aware that there was an earth to return to, and that I now must keep my mind open to take in as much of this fleeting experience as can be absorbed.
Gratitude out to Dorge, who informed me of the finer qualities of changa, Chronic for turning me on to Carbon Based Lifeforms, which played in the background (very much guiding the experience), and Endlessness, for welcoming to Nexus. Finally, gratitude for House, something about his attitude here really makes me excited to be part of this community-- and for his visual guide that made me think seriously about preparing myself for the experience.
The changa is simple 11x enhanced leaf caapi at 1:1. Only 40mg dose, vaped with a Hot Box. First time I think I got the right temperature (about as hot as I can get it, verging on combustion). No racing feelings, or anxiety at all; I largely credit the changa harmalas, and that I have sloooowly built up to the dose level.
When returning from hyperspace, I opened my eyes to confirm that the room was intact. A candle was burning in the window. To my surprise, a frog emerged from the flame! It took me a moment to realize that a tree frog had attached itself to the window screen to catch bugs attracted to the candle flame. Figuring this out did not lessen the impact of the experience, which I plan to ponder a while.
I will return to this place that I found. I will go deeper.
Going to bed, so excited and tired...