hey everyone,
I'm a guy who likes DMT, I'm 28 yrs old and I live in FL, up until about 3 months ago I have never hallucinated before in my life. 8 Months ago I got fired from my job. I was making about 50 a year, so it really sucked. I thought I was gonna work there forever, ect ect.
Of course I was bitter and pointed the blame anywhere else but myself. With a lot of spare time on my hands i dove into the depth of the internet farther than PC games and porn sites. I stumbled upon the joe rogan forum, which lead me to driving 4 hours south to a city just to try a sensory deprivation tank.
The tank opened my mind like i never thought possible. I got to analyze myself from a 3rd person perspective and just over all had a great meditation session, yet i have never meditated at this point nor did i believe in it. The tank obviously changed that, I immediately began researching meditation and it really helped me think clearly and positive. I wanted to explore more, so that led me to entheogens.
I learned the STB tek and made myself some fine DMT. at first i nibbled like a baby, smoking small doses and getting what i thought at the time epic rewards for getting over the intensity. well last week i decided to drop some LSD, during that trip I decided i was mentally ready to smoke to DMT. this time i put in way too much, but i dont have a scale so i just wanted to make sure i broke through.
I torched the glass, this time letting it really milk up. I took one hit and almost immediately it kicked in, so silly me I let go of the smoke early. My mind was not prepared. i violently barfed at the door step of breaking through, you know the most intense place of a DMT trip you don't want to be idle at. I did not breakthrough, i resisted and in return hell to pay. my scariest trip yet, but the most i brought back with me. I am thankful for the bad trip and it showed me how to respect DMT. at this point i am scared shitless to try DMT again.
Recently a guy named Aubrey was on the joe rogan podcast it was the most excellent story of him visiting an ayahuasca retreat. I believe ayahuasca is the next step in my journey.
Not to many people know about DMT and even if they do know chances are they don't want to do it. So that is what leads me here, I just wanted to join a community that I can share my thoughts with mature and understanding people.
see you all around.
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