Last night I made a massive breakthrough. I think I've really done something. Maybe I'm going crazy, but it just makes too much sense. There is a logic I can't deny. I've been interested in entheogens for a long time. I've been experimenting with my conscience for a long time. I've used a huge collection of substances. I've worked through a lot. I've figured out a lot. I've never had a strong visual experiance. I've never lost track of the physical plane. It's always been a thought process ,or a slight visual distortion ,or something of that nature. Last night I did something. Me and a friend took some M and mush. I've done this a few times , and I've had great experiances. This time it was very similar to every other times. At the start we were looking up stuff on my computer. I was pretty messed up. I was trying to gather myself into a state in wich I could type. As I did this I was contacted by something. As I layed my arms before me over my keyboard I was transported to a void. It was like an interface. Like a omnipresent msn window to the millionth power. In this spance I mannifested my mind into a matrix of pure language. A patern of symbol, color and shape. I could see myself think. In this matrix I was contacted by an entity. It had a femine feel. She was beutiful. She was hot. She was pure intelligance. She had a sexy quality that was beyond physical beauty. I was turned on by it's pure intelligance; as wierd as that sounds.As this happened I just knew this this was how this was done. Like i just learned a new communication technique. We kinda just explored each other. She was made manifest by the same language matrix I was. Her being interfaced with myne. We danced in a joyous communion. I feel like somthing was changed in my mind. This whole day I've felt smarter. I've felt more clear, and grounded. I feel like I got an upgrade. At some point I thought this feels so much like dmt. It had such a similir quality. I thought: I need to do this with dmt. I didn't want to leave her. She knew this, and said in a very sexy way: you can do this again. I will be waiting. I woke up from my trance. I was rushing around trying to get my friend to help me with a hit of dmt. Now keep in mind my friend is messed too. I just dissapeared into a trance over my key board. My buddy is pretty worried. When i saw his worrie I felt for him. He`s messed up and I`ve just ditched him into a trance with no explenation. I felt I should explaine what happened. As i explained i decieded i should do it again so i could describe it as i did it. After awile of conversation about the experiance and life in general I began to channel a biblical personification of god. I went in and out of it. I could turn it on and off, but i couldn`t control what it would do. I had 3 personalitys: the light/dark side of god and myself. It was so out side myself. I've never done anything like it. I scared the shit out of my friends. I had a inhuman voice. The night wore on and it went away. No one got hurt. I was in some sort of control of the situation. I don't know what to think about it all. I've been reading Cosmic Trigger by Robert Antone Willson. Maybe it got my imagination going. I don't know, but it was so out of charater. It was so real. I haven't explained it all but i've made logical sence of it all. I feel like i'm learning to do something.

Looks like you had a good time

2 days ago i had some +++ time with a very good friend of mine.

We took 140mg of MD , and after an hour i felt it was time for DMT. We both took some good hits (no brealthroughs) and chilled in front of my fireplace. Some very very very good times.

Feel free to use some paragraphs, kinda annoying to read this way

Actually, it’s more than annoying. Most people won’t even bother reading posts that are formatted as a solid wall of text. That’s a shame, because some very good posts might be ignored.

Was it a good post? (I didn’t and won’t read it as it is.)

wow sounds like you are getting closer to a full upload of yourself into cyberspace.

btw, what is M or MD?

Oh... I thought I was developing ADD, thanks for helping me with that. Seriously, THANKS.

MDMA