Okay after my breakthrough experience it lead me to believe that us humans are actually just a form of robot. Our soul/consciousness is the battery that runs our bodies. Its like these entities that we cannot see when we are in physical form plant our soul/consciousness into our brain/physical body. When i broke through it felt like i was a robot being operated on, except my consciousness was there to witness it. Imagine the movie "iRobot, Pinocchio, or Nine" thats how it felt like for me and that is the only things i can compare my belief to sort of. Im sorry i am having a lot of trouble finding the right words to describe my belief, but maybe if you read my experience below you will have a better understanding on what i am trying to say.
Below is my analysis/breakdown of my breakthrough.
Experience #2
Dosage 40mg-50mg (Eyeballed)
One HUGE vapor hit, before I could exhale I already felt that breathing was non-existence, my entire body/physical form was non-existence, I felt disconnected from my physical self. Tried to close my eyes but I couldn’t. I ended up having them wide open and “zoned out” while I was zoned out I saw/heard/thought/ MANY MANY things/thoughts/knowledge/colorful patterns/. I heard voices and “things” communicating, I wasn’t listening or focusing on that, but I was aware that it was there, I was to busy focusing on the things I were seeing. I felt the presence of other entities there, I felt disconnected from this world, I was NOT in my room, because in the end of the trip, I felt that I was “leaving”, while I was “coming back” I felt the presence of the entitie(s?) leaving or vanishing and I thought to myself “noooo! Come back, how do I get back? Im not done yet…I have things to ask you!” then I felt myself sucked back into the “reality”/physical world or dimension or however you want to call it. I came back. It was not until then that I realized what the hell just happened… and i realized they were communicating but i wasnt paying attention to what they were saying.
Now that I am back in my body or to be able to think in my body.. this is how the entire experience felt like: It felt like I was being operated on by these “entities”, not exactly sure what they were doing to my body, but I had no feeling throughout my body, the ONLY thing that was “working” was my consciousness/awareness/thinking. It felt as if was literally laying on a bed (which I was) or an operating table, and these “entities” or “beings” that I COULD NOT SEE (but I could HEAR), was performing some kind of “surgery” or “diagnosis” on me…putting thoughts/knowledge into my head. Right now I am thinking, could they have been talking and realized that I was not dead and that this was all a mistake, then sent me back? Were they filling my brain with thoughts/knowledge? (I saw/felt/heard answers to many questions I had thought about in the recent past, but they went by SO fast I could not grip them, and I cant remember any of them, but I remember hearing them answered!), this sounds crazy but I believe I did. On the way back I actually FELT like I was traveling from somewhere else, BACK to my body in this world. It was unbelievable.
I don’t know if my research or hearing/reading other people’s testimonials had factor into my experience but this is the ONLY way I can describe it with current human understanding and language. I cant think of any other way I could describe my experience. It sounds crazy but I have had thoughts that maybe I was hearing my own thoughts, maybe the things I experienced were caused by my memories/thoughts being shuffled through. The questions still remain unanswered and there is still much research to be done and much to learn. I will be back to visit these entities, they did not seem evil.