i honestly don't even know how i'm going to write this....i have no choice in the matter (i will explain) and i am horrifyingly insecure that this report will be taken in the wrong way. yet- i still cannot NOT write this. all i can honestly say is that what you are going to read is made manifest by a frequency...
my beloved park...
i have not worked in a while. true breakthrough has not taken place for nearly two weeks. i've been injured pretty severely and then illness set in while my immune system was so decimated.
i felt like a glitchy computer with a really crappy dial-up connection. my connections to other dimensions would be thready and non-communicable. i needed to heal.
today i felt different upon waking...i felt not healthy per se....just that one particular 'band' had successfully reconnected. like a single phone line just got reestablished.
the phone was ringing off the hook and a part of me could do nothing but answer.
the journey began so powerfully and the connection was so absolute, it was literally like the movie avatar. i literally woke up in another world. more than i've ever experienced. like the most lucid lucid-dream imagineable. the reality was complete on every front. and something else was very different. i was me. 100% me. no body, mind you....and the ability to be what i was experiencing, but ME. no desire to judge or question, simply to accept. i was in another reality and AWARE of the fact.
i KNEW on some level that i had a body and it existed in another place. i knew that where i currently was, i was incorporeal and my 'abilities' were far beyond what that other body/me knew. i have never been so far, been so aware of it, and been so completely in acceptance (absolutely not a trace of fear anywhere) of it.
the sensation of true bliss and oneness was immediately matched to a growing sense of purpose. this was the point when i was shown who and what i am. i was shown in the most direct way i've ever known and i was literally 'switched on' to never forget. ever.
an alien race i have seen many many times, though not 'the golden ones' took me into their dimension. i was on a craft and at the same time i was in multiple scenarios involving my consciousness. i could experience all of these concurrently without losing track of one single atom in any of them. one aspect of myself was shown cartoon worlds where my 'self' governed the energy of the world itself.
in each of these worlds it would start off happy, smiley and playful and at the end of each world the faces would melt into more taunting, snotty (and playful). i was told that there is a part of my consciousness that has been conditioned to be 'uncomfortable' with continual happiness. that it has been conditioned to come up with a "disappointing" ending to everything. that i had formed this at a very early stage in my evolution in this physical dimension and that i would want to focus on being more at peace with being happy, since that was what was coming...
what was coming...
all of the scenarios i am experiencing instantly snap into one. i am before my alien friends and i have no fear, no sorrow, no desire to return back to the physical....i am at peace and i know that my only "challenge" is to work towards being more at peace with being at peace..
i say to them, i will always go with you...for it has dawned on some part of my awareness that i went farther and deeper than i've ever gone. a lot farther. and i never even thought about coming back or being lost there forever. this is how far i was my brothers and sisters. something had completely shifted.
i was told, in that very realization, who and what i am. what my 'role' in the coming evolution is. it began with a question: "who have you always been your entire life?" "though you struggle to know your 'purpose', if you look back at your life in a certain frequency (your true frequency) you will see who you are meant to be....for you have been it all your life."
it was as clear and obvious to me in that moment as existence itself. i have always brought people together. always, from always being the 'captain' in dodge-ball games, to organizing gatherings for friends, to forming the L.O.V.E. brigade, to being the liason between my teammates and my sponsors....i have always been the person to listen to people from each camp and create a language that both could understand. i am a communicator. nothing more and nothing less.
i was told plainly that i am now a communicator between where my body is and other dimension(s). no, i'm not a channel. the 'information' that i give and receive is purely a 'frequency'. i was told that through DMT, meditation and the sound work i am doing, i will become more and more able to enter the body-less worlds of other dimensions. i have no message to give other than i was told that it is what we are all working towards. that the more comfortable you can become with leaving this world and entering that higher state of being, the easier your evolution will be.
it was explained that something profound was coming and working on communicating and 'being' as the true self was the only thing that should be top priority. that a new 'sense' was about to be awakened in humanity. be it through death and departure from the body or by working on the ability to consciously exist in both vibrations (ie: the ablity to experience reality including and BEYOND the physical plane). essentially- evolve or die. either way you're gonna need to be comfortable leaving this physical, limited reality behind.
the responsibility of being a clear transmitter/receiver for a higher frequency hit me hard. there was something so important and so clear to it. i began crying and i continued to cry. the wrenching contractions popping open things in me that, like certain trees need fire to propogate, NEEDED to be wrung vigorously via the deepest catharsis to be awakened. this was one 'shift' that was going to be permanent.
on my back i opened my eyes and stared directly at the sun. this was no longer the 'ball of gas' that i had learned about in school. this was a stream of information that now poured through my eyes directly into my pineal gland. i stared directly into the sun and watched frequencies, codes and colors beam down into my very seat of consciousness. my eyes began to flicker after a while....at first seeming quite random, then beginning to display a pattern....highly complex...as if my mind were being 'rebooted'. this went on for about a minute solid. it was rapturous.
i walked home barefoot through the park. more present and more clear than i've ever been. at the edge of the park stood a painter with an easel and canvas set up....there is a new museum almost completed in the park that is quite cool to look at. i asked the artist if i could come around and see his work. he said yes..
what i saw was a brilliant water-color representation of the structure before us. i stared at his work, then looked directly at the structure. though i 'saw' with my eyes exactly where he was focussing, i realized in that moment that i did not see with my MIND what he was seeing with his mind. that i have been walking around this world the bulk of my life SEEING WITH MY EYES, what others are seeing with their MINDS. before i could even get sad or negative about this realization, a voice came through me (from my new 'connection'?) that said,
"this is the new evolution you are growing towards on this planet." "you will one day be able to see with your mind what others see with THEIR minds."
the utter massiveness and almost-too-deep-to-grasp-ness of this notion made me joyous beyond all reason. isn't this what all of us TRULY desire in our hearts?? to have someone SEE exactly what you SEE. we say, "see things through my eyes", but what we really mean is, "see things through my mind."
the notion that this is possible fills me with a love and gratitude that has no containment. that's worth more than all the tea in china....
WITH THE DEEPEST LOVE AND GRATITUDE!!
"Rise above the illusion of time and you will have tomorrow's
wisdom today."