Great comment and thanks for sharing it here.

To be honest, I was wondering if it could be a cool idea to implement some kind of personal TRIP journal function on the site for full members? Which can be shared or not shared at anytime. Complete voluntary of course, even with options to make them private but available to anyone through sharing a uniquely generated link/key. Because then people could kind of track their "progress", whatever it maybe, and it could be easier than deciding whether to have to share a story at a specific time (where they might want to but it's not convenient to type out), or without the worry of website-wide availability (and I guess with the internet in the new member area--not quite sure how it works for people not logged into the site though).

Just an idea, as I think the sharing of information, even if it's just conjecture or of a anecdotal / subjective nature, can be beneficial to others who are in need of guidance but might have trust / paranoia / whatever type of issues that get in their way.

This is entirely a tangent I'm taking here, and maybe a little pedantic: It's worth considering the difference between the terms 'eternal' and 'perpetual'. Notwithstanding the pressure from popular usage, as I understand it 'eternal' (along with 'eternity') would be used in order to convey a sense of existing or occurring outside of time whereas 'perpetual' and 'perpetuity' are the words for things that go on forever.

What with eternity being outside of our usual perception of time it can give the illusion of carrying on forever, alongside the seemingly contradictory feeling of it only having lasted an instant when we return to a more consensus time-flow.

This distinction seems useful to me and popular usage of 'eternal' does not, in my experience, make it clear.



If you click on the name of any member (here's yours) it brings up their profile page where one of the clickable tabs is for "Experience Reports". Now, I'm not entirely sure right now but I think if you were to add a report to the one of the relevant Experience Reports sections of the forum (each under their respective substance/plant), it would then appear under this tab. The profile page is only visible to logged-in members; however, experience reports seem to be visible to all.

How would you envision the 'Trip Journal' function working? One option as it stands is that you can just send yourself a PM if you want to store your trip journal privately on this site. A possible advantage of your proposed system is that it could in principle include a user definable visibility level, from completely private to members only to public. This would allow 'publishing' of the report with the click of a button rather than some cut-and-paste fiddling, which would then be easier for smartphone users in particular.

Another option in the present set up is that you could save the reports as attachments, which are only visible to logged-in members.

Your idea is worth discussing in a thread of its own, just so we don't derail too much here!

2 months back, I had some sort of entity take control of me entirely after diving into my body. This was what I thought was a sub-breakthrough dose. Like 3-5s on my Yocan, I exhaled, and immediately everything looked different in my room. Notably, the garbage bag which I exhale into (not to trip alarm) was weirdly different. As soon as I exhaled and looked at it, it looked like I was holding bubble wrap.

Maybe 10-15s elapsed between this exhale, thinking something was WAY different than before, and something jumping into me. My vision instantly went black and I felt yanked backwards. I've only remembered parts of what happened after this on subsequent attempts to vape DMT again; very, very minor attempts. What I did remember during the lucid part was being in this complete alternate version of my bedroom with completely distorted versions of objects in my room.

My repressed memory was entirely blocked out for a month, until I inhaled a second 1 to 2-second hit on my vape. I instantly remembered: I was held in a void by this "entity" and controlled like a puppet, being tortured and fucked with. Terrified, I put down the vape and prayed it wouldn't happen again. That was a month or so ago.

Since regaining the memory of that blocked out experience, I've had this constant faded memory of something else happening before the puppeteering stuff. Like some sort of demonstration of the "thing" that took over, showing me that it controlled everything and I had 0 control over my life. Whenever I'd try and remember what happened during this part, I'd get a wave of terror over me when I think I'd "come close" to it. And then I'd completely forget that memory and not be able to "find it" anywhere. That's never happened to me before.

Anyway, for some stupid reason, I decided to hit the vape again (maybe "The Calling" as it's referred to as). No idea why, but I think I wanted to prove to myself that this was just a lone bad trip. Basically I wanted to get over this fear and see the awesome shapes and visuals in my head like before.

I did 2s and felt nothing a few days ago and felt/saw nothing. I wound up reheating it in hot water so it was liquid. I did 2s and felt nothing, but saw something very, very faint when I closed my eyes. I wound up doing another 2s, held for 10s, and exhaled into the bag.

The fucking bag was that weird bubble-wrap texture again. That faded memory of what I couldn't quite remember was restored -- this is what it was doing to me. I looked up and said, "That's right" and my entire room was completely fucking different, cartoony, caricatures of everything in it. I had no color in my vision, either. Everything was this grim black-and-white and everything in my room was a dummy version. It has/had complete control over my perception, I think. I sat there completely terrified, remembering this feeling again, saying, "Thaaat's right" to myself. I was so mad that I'd done DMT again and gotten myself back into this "realm." Last time I didn't go outside, but this time I wanted to, to see if life was normal or not. When I got off my bed, everything was normal again. It felt like a warning.

Has anybody experienced anything like this? Sorry for bumping an old thread, but this was a low-level dose and some people ITT had similar experiences with regaining memories.

Honestly, after researching more, people don't seem to believe NGC_2264's story, but the closest thing to describing this entity is his version of The Triad. Only I don't remember 3 of them, just the 1, but it looked just like his linked description.

I'd appreciate any help. Thanks.

To the most recent poster: Hey, I'd say lay off the medicine for a while, then only when you hear the call, and only then, dip your toes again.

As for me, I might get a flashback or two (anxiety pang as if carrier frequency is getting louder and have to lay off reading thread further for a while) from reading certain posts in this thread. That's how it is for me still.

These types of trips definitely happen, this happened to me, and from what I've read on nexus, it happens to quite a few people. Though it's seems hard to explain to someone who never experienced this, like there is your average DMT experience, there is what one might call breakthrough and then there are levels to breakthroughs and then there is this what we talk about in this thread. It just feels like a different type of DMT experience I guess. So unless you've been there, you haven't.

To me suggestions just to "shine them with love and rainbows out of your muladhara chakra" doesn't seem to fit the situation, as during such traumatic (bad) experiences, one feels distinct external control over self or parts of self.

Now I can't say if this is because of demonic entities at work or some psychology stuff or aliens, but nonetheless I envy ones who have skills and fortitude to withstand and repel such states.

I've always thought the indigenous traditional shamanic practices would have hand on experience with these, practices that we home delvers might miss out on. Then again, they just might be like all of us, riding it out, I dunno. But I'd love to think they have mastery.
And if so, this mastery might just as well be the protective precautions in advance too, set 'n setting stuff. But then again this might be just in vane too. Idk.

I'm not planning on it, although I thought I felt the call to do the most recent one. A tiny inhale on the vape and then my entire room changing into that terrifying, black-and-white distortion in a split second was highly unnerving.

I certainly miss the 60x before this where I'd just close my eyes and enjoy the incredible visual performance it'd put on for me.

I'm still hoping others can chime in with similar experiences.

I encountered two dark,shadowy figures on my 4th or 5th experience. They looked mean and were trying to be scary, making evil faces at me, trying to get a reaction from me. I didn't feel afraid, only curious. All of a sudden, one rushed toward my face in a strong, threatening way, like it was going to attack me. I held my space and smiled at it. The entity paused, backed away and then returned my smile. They both left after that. It was like they were testing me, to see if they could scare or manipulate me. For me, the takeaway was to just flow with the experience, not let fear control you. I think the experience would have been different, had I shown fear. I was actually a little surprised at my reaction. It turned out well that time. I've also, on several occasions, had Mayan looking beings poke their faces through the fractal membrane and just hang out with no interaction with me.

I've been routinely swarmed by entities in almost every experience sub-breakthrough and beyond. Very occasionally dark. Most often confusing, insistent, frantic, mischievous. Quite a number of times so many entities that it is impossible to make any sense of them. Sometimes playful and warm. Very occasionally angry and trying to tell me off. Very occasionally so deep and telepathic that I've come down crying my eyes out. Only once giant, mechanical brain inspecting arachnid.

But without doubt the most beautiful visually was just a few days ago after a long break. The air in the room was a wave of fractal geometry that took the form of a faceless head and arms as it moved across towards me flowing up and down, up and down.

This was sub breakthrough, but this entity clearly took me by the shoulders and pushed me back onto the sofa into a relaxed position. The one form became two or three and then proceeded to dance around in front of my eyes, folding and morphing in a pleasing and friendly manner.

I dont see a lot of colours in the geometry. Transparent is the usual, like glass with a hint of reflection. Sometimes murky and sometimes made of pure light.

I'm getting sidetracked. But I guess my input is that all manner of personalities visit me even sub breakthrough.

I can't speak on the nature of ALL the entities we encounter in these states but I have noticed that by increasing the coherence of the experience via sympathetic resonance (large singing bowls and even eye gazing) that a lot of them seem to be the result of the rational mind or left brain or ego trying to make sense of the unfamiliar data

Do you think, you could elaborate on that a little bit more? Not sure I understand really what you are doing and the conclusions you draw - but it sounds really interesting.

Yeah, what? I'm not really understanding what that meant.

Also, I'm curious if anyone else has experienced the delay in "breakthrough" (subjective term and not an agreed-upon unit of measurement) that I reported earlier. Probably 5-15s had passed since I felt the effects and exhaled when my vision went black and I was yanked backward. This delay seems odd to me if I'd done enough to "blackout" and have my consciousness transported to a void.

One would think that'd be fairly instantaneous, no? 3-5s inhale > 10s hold > exhale > 5-15s lucidity > bam! vision goes black and I'm pulled backwards on my bed. Is that a normal timeline for something like this? Anyone have this happen before?

Thank you.

Yep, perfectly normal. Happens to me on occasion, even when I'm not taking a breakthrough dose. DMT is wild card, no matter how many times one does it you never really know what you're gonna get.

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Our brain is constantly dumbing down this unfathomably complex universe we call reality and constructing a model that we experience. What our scientific instruments tell us a tree IS, for example, is light-years beyond anything we normally experience when looking at a tree. If you could see its cellular and quantum makeup, all at once, or see more of the electromagnetic spectrum, then you'd get an idea of what I mean. Our experience right now is reduced to just the surface of things.

To make matters worse there is many fascinating studies that our brain (left hemisphere to be specific) goes even further and will confabulate aka we lie to ourselves without even realizing it. It's why students in one study we reviewed in college saw a gun in an intruders hand when it was really just a banana. Expectations, conditioning, beliefs, prior experiences etc can have a strong influence in psychedelic states when a more right hemisphere version of reality begins to emerge and our left brain attempts to make sense of this ocean of unfamiliar data coming in. Data that it is not even capable of comprehending. So it does its best and you often even see how memories etc play a role in what you are seeing when it comes to these "entities". Even your current thoughts can have a massive influence on it. I don't know if ALL entities are a misinterpretation of the unfamiliar data but it's been very clear to me that these sub-breakthrough ones are particularly obvious. For example I saw one my last solo journey that looked like Mario in Greek robes. I don't think there is an oddly clothed Nintendo character floating around in another dimension that wanted to say hi.

It is possible to bring a new level of coherence to these experiences using things like sound and eye gazing with a partner. It smoothens out the waveform of consciousness so to speak, allowing a far more clear experience to emerge. By combining sound and eye gazing we no longer see any entities and the experiences have been an entirely new level of profound compared to my prior journeys. It's an ancient technique but has gone almost entirely ignored these days. I'll be writing more about that at another time.

Recently had a friend experience DMT for the first time while coming down from an acid trip. He decided that he simply had access to a consciousness emulator and was ultimately responsible for the entities he emulated. I'm not sure if I agreed with him at the time but it was certainly an interesting perspective.

Interesting. Thanks for sharing that. It's nice to see others experience similar things. The delayed reaction and low dose make me think the experience isn't strictly dosage-dependent if that makes sense. People doing BT-doses and experience lockout doesn't make sense either, but it happens. DMT is indeed a wild card.

I've only dabbled a bit since these experiences and got more of the memory of my troubling time. That whole state-dependent memory thing DMT does is also wild.




Unless we're connected to everything we experience together in the DMT world. Then it seems like anything is possible to float around in there. The few experiences I've had have me leaning toward a simulated reality (which isn't to mean fake, but our "reality" being extremely malleable by some sort of higher-ups).

this is fascinating to read because i would definitely categorize myself as a frequent user and i still have to this point not experienced anything like any of the entities i've read or heard about from others.

there have been maybe one or two trips out of say over a hundred where there was something i could maybe interpret as an entity. the closest of those was a sorta cartoon looking squirrel/raccoon type thing that winked at me.

im very curious about these encounters so many people seem to be having and why my brain hasn't felt like conjuring some up for me at all...(at least not yet...)

Damn, that's interesting. I hit my vape pen maybe 50-70x or so before ever receiving contact. Until then, I'd just see awesome CEV in my head. After the fun contact from them is when I got the terror trip. There was an entity controlling that trip, for sure. Well, it was completely controlling me. I can only remember specific parts of it for a second before it dissipates. It's still pretty terrifying when I get that quick flash of the memory. Like a jolt through me and the hairs on my arm stand up. I don't like using this word, but it felt evil. I know it was telling me things, but I didn't leave with them. But the overarching feeling was complete control over me and this reality. Maybe that's just the Jester, I don't know. But watch out for that guy, buddy.

He paid me a visit in my sleep shortly after, too. I thought DMT was the only way, but I guess not. I definitely don't look at reality the same.