Ever since my first DMT experience my shroom trips look like DMT! Just not as strong visuals, can stop them if i open my eyes usually. Anyway.
It had that circus feel to it. It was like a fun party. I dont recall meeting a jester as far as seeing it as a visual, but something with that type of feel was guiding me, helping me look through the layers. And offered me a box. I dont recall if i opened it. I also remember something about being handed a key. And something clicked in my head and I had the thoughts that all that matters is learning, loving, and having fun. I kept having a lot of inner monologue trying to use language to discribe what i am seeing, Because i wanted to remember it. But realized it wasnt really possible. When i realized i need to stop trying to use language to try to hold on, i went like deeper, through the patterns of gears and puzzle pieces. But then I dont recall what happened. It just felt great. I wasnt afraid but free and accepting.
I think that is maybe what they call surrendering.
I tried DMT first time on dec 21st, and was scared to try again (still trying to get courage) and my past 2 mushroom trips were kinda scary to me. ** jester hats, creepy vibe, scary teeth and mouths, eyes ** This was a VERY welcome change!! It is so strange to me that my shroom trips are like DMT in nature now.
Anyway, just wanted to share my 4 gram mushroom trip that was oddly like DMT.
I wonder if reading so many trip reports on dmt causes all my trips to look like that because i am thinking of it? Who knows. Before letting go I kept thinking in my trip that i am just imaging things and these experiences are replicas of other peoples trip reports. But I guess a lot of people see the same things in DMT trips, there must be some sort of reason outside of influence, right?