Hello everyone.
I am nervous about doing my dmt. I have been trying to get my hands on it for about 5 years and recently I learned a technique to extract using mimosa hostilis. My extraction went ok , I ended up with a yellow/orange wax like material. While I know this is due to impurities I tested a small amount and got as far as the beginning of a trip kind of like a strong
dose of mushrooms, which I have quite abit of experience with as I suffer from cluster headache and I found tripping on mushrooms alleviated my suffering,but grew to love mushrooms, then learned of the more powerful dmt, which is extremely difficult to acquire where I live, anyway after testing with a small dose, I decided to have a much bigger dose while my girlfriend and here cousin was home, I popped to my shed loaded a big scoop of this wax stuff up and wow, I completely wasn't ready or expecting the power, i had really underestimated it, I started with these really intense emotions and a completely indescribable feeling,
mind blowing, boggling,tripping a multi coloured portal thing then blocks of yellow kind of like a circus theme rushing down a tunnel, then I this void of yellow circus themed, in which I felt as though there was a female presence there with me, all this time i thought i had died , when I was coming down I was still tripping hard and couldn't see properly as my shed was dark which scared me too. I went back in as though nothing happened I'd just been for my normal night spliff, but I was completely confused and amazed by what happened, I had to hide it because my girlfriend doesn't approve of drugs but accepts my cannabis use btw. Even after explaining about my cluster headache, I have abit of a coke problem and get paranoid with her when I'm on coke so she has banned all class a's. But my doing dmt is to help my addiction and internal problems but she wont get it , its complicated. Anyway a couple of days later when my girlfriend was at work and I was home alone I summoned the courage to take another big dose about 12 midday, I would try to explain this trip but it would take many more words, basically I feel like my girlfriend negative thoughts on the act of smoking hard drugs has a negative effect on my experience, shes gone out tonight with friends and I have a nice big dose left and want to do it but I feel anxious. Any inspiration out there.
Peace